My depression took a different turn awhile back in the begining of january of 2009. i lost my dad in 2008 two days before christmas.i was'nt my self for awhile i was'nt hanging around family members or my best friend. i was alway staying to my self. then i start drinking and doing drugs to get away from the pain. and yes i through 10 mos sobriety out the window but like i said i was'nt my self back then. so i just kept on drinking jan,feb,mar. i remeber it was in march i was walking back home and i was so drunk i was trying to get pick up for walking while drinking never happen. and i was ready to end my life so i could be close to my dad again. well it almost happen i was drinking conyac whiskey. that cost a $100.00 for a gallon.i drank have of the gallon on top of all the beer i drank. so i was'nt feeling any pain .so i stop for alittle while and learn back on a bridge railing where you walk and fell off it backwards! i slam my head and shoulders in the ground first then back and rolled twice and slam my head into a cement brigde pole. and that knocked me out cold!!!
the police could'nt find me it was dark but some how i manage to cough and they found me. i was taken to the hospital they drew blood and i had an alcohol level of 2.9 almost died from the fall and the alcohol i was sent to another hospital away from my home town. and that where i started to get help from doctors for alcohol and drug and depression, sucide thoughts!!! since then i've been sober and drug free for 3 mos. and just quit smoking to i have 3 day now and feel great!!! thats why i said life getting awhole lot better!!! god was watching over me all that time when i was going through all of the stuff i was pulling and i'm so happy i live through it all so i can go on forward with my life and i'll see my dad when it's my time!!!!