lost in depression
Depression has been part of my life nearly as long as I remember. The last episode started 7+ years ago when my great aunt died. In 2007 my church turned on my husband and me when we got a new minister that made it clear that he had no place in his church for a couple who couldn't provide the church with children. I was also the church secretary and was fired. I have been completely lost ever since. My marriage ended last summer after 12 years as I closed myself off from my husband because he became bored with my problems. I spent 9 days in a psychiatric hospital last July because I was so upset because of the divorce. I now have a new home and am seeing someone who I care very much about but I will most likely run him off too as I'm not coping really well despite therapy and medication. I am at the point that I don't think I can be helped or maybe its just not worth it. I don't see any of the good things in my life = only the bad. I don't cope well with even simple things. I'm so lost when I should be getting my life back on track. Basically I'm just waiting in misery until it's time to be put in the ground.