| Anxiety and Depression
Most people that I know would be surprised to learn I have depression.
I have been dealing with it for around two years. Due to my rigorous graduate school program (and due to my personality--very anxious) my anxiety got out of control and completely depleted my serotonin levels (I was told this by a therapist, who, other than diagnosing me with depression, was not extremely helpful).
It's a vicious cycle--low serotonin leads to depression, and depression leads to low serotonin; it worries me that I will have these problems forever (I am in my mid-twenties) but as I have always been an anxious person, I don't see an end to these issues. I realize my problems are not as serious as other posters in this forum, however I do feel very empty, alone and cry all the time. I think I should be happier at this stage in my life, and this thought depresses me more. I hope I will eventually learn how to deal with this so it is not a continuing problem. It got so bad a year and a half ago that I couldn't get out of bed or go to class. People who dont have depression don't realize how debilitating it is---I knew I never realized you actually feel this heavy 'cloud' over you; it is not just an emotional issue, but a physical one as well.
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