Hello everyone, new to the board but unfortunately not to infertility

[Mia1314]

Hi everyone, I am 37 years old and have been dealing with infertility for the past 8 years. After 5 years of pain we were blessed with my son whom we adopted in 2005. We truly were blessed with him and I am grateful for him! However, 3 years have passed and of course my son needs a sibling. We decided to try iui a couple of months back, the same drill as everyone else, chlomid on cycle day 3 and sono blood until ovulation which of course I am given Ovidrel trigger. I am on my 3rd iui and am 11 dpiui.

I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was a BFN. My boobs are killing me, same as pms and at any given moment I feel like I am going to kill someone!!! I have some mild cramping just like before my AF!! Oh did I mention I am on those nasty progesterone supposit. I feel like it failed again because I feel exactly the way I did the other times! My beta is on Saturday and I have a HUGE holiday party on Saturday night!!

I am dreading the phone call because I know I am not and I don't know how I am going to handle the party! Half the people know what is going on and half don't! I am just sooo mentally exhausted, my veins look like I am on Heroin, and my whole mental state is just not right! I think if this failed I am going to take a break and get through the holidays without any drugs in my system!

If this fails my doctor is going to up the chlomid to 150. Thanks for listening, I just needed to vent to people who know exactly what I am feeling!! Any words of encouragement would be great! I don't know anyone on this site but I wish nothing but the best for everyone and I will pray for everyone!! I wouldn't wish this on my worse enemy!! I'm sure you all agree......

[M77W]

Hi Mia, welcome around I am sorry you feel like it didnt work again.

I totally relate to the break thing, mostly during the hollidays Ughh...., what a ride are we on.
You are so right, dont wish this even on the worst enemy.
Take care and who knows, you might be surprised with a BFP
Mady


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[2try]

HI, I know what you are going thruogh i did 2 ivf cycle and both cycles failed.When i was on my second cycle i felt the same as the first one when it came to taking the pregnancy test.I hope you get successful results and sprinkels of baby dust.