I Need Help!!! - Page 2

jtu91952 · 10-27-2004, 08:06 PM

MamaK, i can empathize. I was on lipitor, zetia, lisinopril, toprol xl, verapamil, hctz, lantus, humalog, baby asprin, and levothroid for thyroid. I've had two heart attacks. Last month, i went to Er due to severe chest pains. I quit smoking after being released. I almost gave up, bcuz i felt nobody understood my problems with all those meds. I was ok with the diabetes, but when they threw high cholesterol in the mix, and my lifestyle changes (diet & exercise and weight loss) didn't help, that's when i really became depressed.

God put me here for a high purpose. Although i can't work anymore (first time in 35 yrs) i know i can do something to help other people. I take care of other people and forgot to take time for me. Im still a little depress bcuz i will be seeing a new cardio dr next month. I hope she can prescribe a blood pressure pill that won't cause my glucose readings and cholesterol to rise like hctz did. Lisinopril is a good bp med but i've become allergic to it after 7 or 8 yrs.

I am so scare of having another heart attack. In the ER they asked me if i had any phobia, well duh yes HEART ATTACK. I had a good endo but he went back to Russia, now im looking for a new one. Hang in there and if you get depress come to this board. Im sure we are not the only ones suffering with depression. Im not big on taking meds, but will if i need to. I come out of my depression by helping others with their problems. I can't wait until my longer brother moves here with his new baby. She will be my play toy. Kids always brings me out of my slump.

mamak · 10-27-2004, 09:35 PM

JT, YOU'VE already helped me by letting me know that I'm not alone. This makes my second heart attack also and the wierd thing is that I didn't know about the first one. The EEG found that one, which the doctor says was 6 months to a year ago. He said having diabetes could of kept me from having pain while the attack was happening. In the meds, I forgot to mention the Novilin R and Lantus. I keep those in the fridge. Thank you for sharing and your right, helping others heaps blessings on your head. I also have the fear of another major attack especially with my BS being out of control but in praying today. I gave it all to the Lord. I feel as he's already answering my prayers. I've met you and Ruth. You are both already a blessing to me. Mama Kay

SamQKitty · 10-28-2004, 02:00 AM

Mamak and JT -
When one is depressed, it's hard to imagine that ANYTHING is worthwhile. Having been through two major depressions in my lifetime, I certainly understand that feeling. However, once you get help, (and admittedly it sometimes takes a bit of trial and error with meds), the depression will lift and life, despite all its complications, will once again seem so very precious again.

It may be difficult to do, but we all need to put illness in perspective. It's not, "God, why me?" but rather, "Why not me?". And there is always someone worse off than you...just go look at the cancer boards and you'll realize that we don't have it ALL that bad.

I've had high BP since I was 30 due to a renal problem, I've been on tons of medication for years, developed diabetes at 38, had a heart attack at 39, developed fibromyalgia at 41, was treated for cancer three years ago, and I'm still going strong! My cousin had an aortic aneurism (same thing John Ritter died of) two years ago and, as a result of the surgery that saved his life, became completely blind. He is still enjoying life and would be the first to tell you that he'd rather be blind than dead. He has said that he's not afraid to die anymore, but he sure is going to enjoy the heck out of life as long as he's still here!

So, I guess perspective is everything, huh?

Ruth

mamak · 10-28-2004, 10:44 AM

Ruth what words of wisdom you speak. I've done the why me, thank you Lord it's nots worse, the whole bit. Deep down I know my problem. I don't want diabetes. I don't want heart problems, I want to go do the things I want to do without limitations. This is a self will thing and I know very ridicolous (sp). I feel that everything thats happened is a wake call because I don't want to die either. I have a wonderful husband, 4 kids and 8 grandchildren. I know once in my heart that I accept my conditions, I will be alright. Right now, it's the learning how, the motivation, the will to live with what I've been dealt. I do believe that after I get the depression under control, I'll have the incentive to what I have to do. Now I need to go find a doctor. Thanks for your help. Mama Kay

SamQKitty · 10-29-2004, 12:17 AM

Mama Kay,
You may want to also look for a local support group for diabetes, or for people who've had bypass surgery. It's tremendously helpful to talk to others who are going through the same thing you are.

Please do find a good endo, and keep us posted on your progress. I'll leave you with some other words of wisdom, spoken by John Lennon many years ago: "Life is what happens while you're making other plans."

This IS our life, and we must find the strength to go on living it!

Ruth