Hi it's Julie

[bluejulie5]

Oh that is so great about you and your girl; I have a precious 4 yr. old daughter and I know what you mean about those special moments; not that I am anywhere near where you are at. You have come a long way baby!!!!!!!
I am trying to look at how blessed I am, I have a great husband 3 beautiful kids, plenty of money to get us by, acutally, no problems.........I think I used to take the pills (one of the reasons) because, look at my life its too good to be true, what if this and what if that (I am sure becuase of the death of my first husband and brother).
I worry about bad things that could happen to me or my family.......you know, invent things in my mind. but I am working on that with my therapist, and I am also on paxil 60mg and take a valium or 2 a day. (hubby hangs on to them and says I am going to have to taper off those too. he also hung on to my methadone bless his heart)

[Sarandipity]

Julie,
You must have sent me that last post exactly when I was sending yours to you! So I didnt see it. Sorry!

Answer to your question: it took 7 days AFTER I took the last sub. For W/D's I took pheno barbital, ativan, quinum, bentyl, wore a clonidine patch, and took something for the runs. They gave me seroquel the first few nights and suboxone starting the third day I was in rehab.

The benzo's (valium) will give you w/d but sounds like it won't be REAL bad if you are on 4 mg a day.

My body is way sensitive.

Im so happy for you that you have a husband who understands !

[Hope12]

Julie,
Wow,a huge congratulations to you.And yes, this is definitely the beginning of a journey.I don't think I've ever talked to you on the boards,but I have been on and off of these for almost as long as you,and have also read your struggles.I just passed the 9-month "clean" mark,but have had my occasional slip.But how exciting for you!!!OMG, I know all about the relearning to live without the pills,like you, even to just go to the grocery store.To just be able to wake up and have to face the day without that crutch that enabled us to not have to deal with soooo much.It is a slow process,learning to live without our doc's,but an enlightening one as well.In the beginning,things can seem so overwhelming,and for me, nine months later,still get that way at times.In fact, I didn't think I was going to make it to a whole nine months,even just a month ago I was ready to throw the towel in .But I didn't,and it seems like all of a sudden I'm starting to turn a corner here,finally really starting to feel better.Point is,you're going to have many ups and downs,and you really have to hang tough and reach out when you need the extra support.You are a miracle in progress,and I am so happy for you.I have do much more to say,but I'm watching my grandson right now,and he's begging for some attention,so I just wanted to tell you how wonderful for you,be proud of yourself!!I am praying for strength and courage for you,congratulations!!!

Peace,Stacie

[Sarandipity]

Stacie! Hi it's me, Sara!
I remember writing to you a while back and saying- I just don't get it how can she be OFF the pills?

I understand what you are talkng about, each day is a struggle, but I have goose bumps during the day, like "God" moments when I do something I wouldnt normally do. Like going out of my way to be kind to someone.

Then theres days where I want to call in sick. Its up and down.

When I was at rehab- they said it takes about a year for people on opiates to stop feeling the mental and physical part of the wd's.

Im so glad you wrote. Please stay in touch, sure good to hear you are doing great!

Love,

Sara

[bluejulie5]

hi stacie and sara

A whole year??!!??
oh my gosh I dont think I could handle a whole dang year !!
Just kidding, I think I know what you mean.
I have my ups and downs too.


Stacie: you have said you had occasional slips.
How did you do that without continuing your addiction, may I ask?
Hope I am not being noisy.
I think that if I took even one, I would be right back on them again.

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