Okay Here's why I've been absent...

[princesspea]

First this is really hard for me to admit and second some of it may be disturbing to some people so please proceed with caution.

I debated posting this on a bp board but I have bp and this effects me so...

I have a list of medical problems that's as long as your arm. Among them is bulimia. It's the cause of some of them actually.

Anyway...my bulimia had been in *remission* for 10 years. I purge by using laxative. In November of last year one of my medical problems, IBS-C, went out of control. The normal medication for this (Zelnorm) would not help at all! It was really bad. I was so sick and in so much pain. The only thing that could be done for me is to put me on a rx laxative. It was okay at first but, having to obsess over what I was eating (I was dx'd with celiac sprue during this time too)and taking the laxatives got my bulimia off and running again.

Now...the reason I have been gone...I managed to keep it up for 3 months. Well I thought I did. I was so worn out and so sick that I wasn't functioning as well as I thought. I was having more medical problems and was exhausted all the time especailly toward the end.

I ended up dehydrated and with VERY low blood pressure. After I passed out twice I finally went and got help which meant IV's and therapy. I actually had the therapy appointment made because I was starting to see I needed help. So the day of the appointment they plugged up my IV and my husband took me to my therapy appointment just like that. It was crazy. So basicly I almost killed myself without even thinking about it.

Now I feel like a fool! I know in my heart this is an illness too but my head keeps kicking me in the butt. The worst part is I saw it coming.

Now I still have to take the rx laxatives but, my husband has them and is giving them out in measured doses. I feel ashamed that he has too.

Well that's it. Aren't you glad you asked? I'm glad I got this all out here with you guys. I didn't realize how much I needed to share this with you all. Thanks for being here for me.

Love,

Jamie

[alexgranny]

Princesspea,
I am so glad that your condition has stabilized. It is important to take care of yourself. I too struggle with an eating disorder (anorexia) and had two hospitalizations for it in 2003. It's hard not to obsess about food because you do need some to live and we are surrounded with triggers.
Take care. I'm glad you shared this.

[goofyafter2]

Jamie, I am so sorry you have been through so much. I really appreciate your sharing your story with us. I too have had to have dh hand out meds to me and if that how it has to be done, then so be it. Do not be ashamed - especially among friends!! We love you! I am glad you are on your way to getting well. Thank you for all of your support. Love, Lori

[Ruth6:11]

Jamie, we have a family here that loves and supports each other whether we are bipolar, bulimic, or hey, even all of the above.
One of my best friends (maid of honor at my wedding) has bulimia - and NOT being able to talk about it was more hazardous to our friendship than her just going ahead and sharing.
I DO know how hard it is to share, although on one level I don't totally understand since it has nothing to do with who you are.
You are a caring, warm, friendly & much liked person.
I am so glad you came back so that the many people I've seen asking about you over multiple threads can feel relieved that you are ok. And that you are back!
Ruth

[maniasterisk]

WOW !!!

I concur with most of the feedback !!!

You mentioned IBS-C. I'm not familiar with that. Irritable Bowel Syndrome ~ with a categorization of "C"... Is that something to denote the "colon" as in bowel ??? Or ??? Celiac ??? Or ???

Gastric and bowel "issues" can certainly take the blush off the rose (I am currently experiencing the dadgum'dest problem with too much acid making it out the pooper - and literally inflaming my "area") ~ so... no need to feel embarrassed or alone... sometimes kaka happens, and sometimes....

The bulemia issues are a whole 'nother bag of worms...

Good luck on the whole shootin' match !!!

Our thoughts and prayers are with you !!!!!!!!!

((((((((((((( Jamie )))))))))))))) ~ but not tightly enough to constrict alimentary canal function !!!

~ M*