OK, now it's ON!!! Hit me with your best shot........

[katie865]

I wish you the best and succesful recovery...I know and understand because I too live with chronic pain. Before I became addicted to oxycodone I had tried everything...I destroyed my stomach with Ibuprofun, Celebrex, Ultracet, and all that stuff long before I even tried narcotic pain relief.....but it is so hard to say no to a medicine that once worked wonders for pain!!! I know that!

When I first started taking the oxy, to me it was the miracle med, took away my pain like magic...but then slowly, a downward spiral led to addiction, that takes over your life, and for me, severe depression, making my pain even worse. Sad thing is for me, my doctor was handing out my scripts like they were candy....he would even call me every two weeks just to check and see if i wanted more!!!

You can do this though...there are other ways out there to treat chronic pain. I myself havent found them yet, but I am sure I can find a way, a combination...i dont know. I also seeing a therapist..I see her 3 times a week. Right now we are working on my anxiety issues which are what bother me most of all right now....but the pain is still miserable. Keep us updated and best of luck. I am now 2 weeks and 5 days clean of narcotics!!!! You can do it too....if eventually the meds werent making you feel better, if you felt like they were taking over your life, you know its time to stop.....but I understand that it is so scary when you dont know what to do about your chronic pain....it scares me as well as it does you.

Im always here for support...You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Katie

[NoMore4Me]

Congrats to Hollyday..
I was addicted to Lortab 10.500 for 12 straight years, been off of them now for 36 days and doing great I must add.
I told my doctor that I didn't want to take them anymore, he looked at me as if I lost my mind but was very happy for me, I have pain and I will always have it, funny thing is that the over the counter meds helps a lot, when I was on the Tabs I never ever thought to take over the counter meds...
Again, congrats to you, you made A VERY GOOD CHOICE, as the days pass you will find that you are much better off without them, come here as often as you can to let us know how your doing, if you have a bad day don't worry about because you will have better days than not....
GO HOLLYDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

day 36 4Me which fits me to a T

[Hollyday]

Oh my gosh, y'all are sooo sweet! I didn't expect such an outpouring of support! Boy that sure made me feel good and I needed to read all that right now because I felt like I was slipping "mentally". It's so weird..... The ultram is working well - not taking care of ALL the pain, but then nothing does - and I'm not suffering too bad from physical w/d's. But today, for the first time since I put them down, I started thinking about them A LOT. I mean, ALL DAY I thought about "should I fill my next prescription" I was feeling weak and y'all really boosted me up - thanks so much!!!

I do have a question though....
I see my doctor tomorrow for my check-in visit and I want to tell him that I would prefer to take ultram instead of hydro for the pain. He will probably be very surprised and ask me why. I am TOO ASHAMED to tell him the truth. He has had many patients that have abused meds and he is always on the lookout for them. But he has praised me many times for being disciplined and taking care of myself. I'm so afraid if I tell him the truth that he will be suspicious of anything I say from here on out and I need him to manage my chronic pain. He trusts me so much and I can't bear the thought of telling him what had really been going on. Do I HAVE to tell him?

Some good advice would be most welcome right now ~

[allaboutme]

Congratulations
It takes a lot of guts to quit, think how good you feel right now. That is a great step. I know it's hard, I find my self months later still looking stuff up on the computer to order. When I quit, it was for a month. I was aching so bad, I slipped, I did some fetynal. I would squeeze the gel into a needle and shoot it. The same amount that used to make me feel normal, messed me bad that time. I threw up for 2 days. I was so sick, that all I could think about was how good I felt sober. I wrote myself a letter reminding me how crappy I felt at that time, and how good it would feel to be sober again. I still have that letter. I haven't had to look at it, but I know it's there. That's enough reminder for me, along with support of people like you.
Hang in there. You're a good person.

[hpd]

Hey Hollyday...just wondering if you had already gone to the doc's office. Some quick advice and support...be honest with him. If you really want to quit then you may want to think about cutting off that "opportunity" to get more. It is embarrasing to admit to someone you respect that you have a problem, but he is a professional and I think he will be way more understanding than you think. Remember addiction is a disease. He also may be able to help you in your recovery. Either way please keep us posted and let us know how it went today. Good luck!