Need Encouragment

[hoapfloats]

Hey My Friends I am on day three and I really need some help! I am craving pills or tussionex so bad right now I am scared I am going to cave. I am going through the worst wds right now I think because I have been abusing them so long now the wds get worse every time.Sky,Mom or Phil or anyone if your on please answer I need you guys now!Sorry I sound dramatic I am just depressed. Tomorow will be the first Thanksgiving without my mom.Oh well I will talk to ya soon.
Your Friend,
Kelley

[sk777]

Kelley, good to hear from you! I was thinking about you, in that 3 minutes today I wasn't thinking about myself. Day 3! Congratulations! That's 3 days closer to feeling good again. And time stops so 3 days is like, eternity, so even more well done!

Those opiates made your brain fill up with opiate receptors and now they are all screaming for more. Read Sarandipity's posts. I think it's like your whole body is having a temper tantrum. I'm obsessed w/ taking drugs right now. I'm taking care of my sister's cat while their away and I told her to take all her ativan and ambien with her because I'm terrified too I'm going to cave. What's scary is that I told her that a few days ago. Today, I don't think I would have told her that.

I was told today to make short goals, 4 hour chunks, or smaller. I will stay clean until 8 pm tonight. I'm working on that. Somehow I think I have to cope with forever today, but we don't. I'm working on that, too.

It's been tremendously helpful for me to be here. Glad you're still with us. How are the rest of your symptoms?

[Philster2003]

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[hoapfloats]

Thanks so much for taking the time Sky777 to reply to my dramatic post! I have been reading your threads too and I am sorry you are having so much trouble too.Wds stink dont they.I was perscribed Ativan a couple years ago but now I take .5 zanax.I have anxiety really bad also and going through these wds makes it a hundered times worse.I have never abused the benzos, my drug of choice in definatly vicodin.My symptems are nausia,diahrea,major anxiety,depression,my skin is crawling,insomnia and the chills.It feels like a really bad case of the flue mixed with like a serious break down! Anyways I am here for you and maybe we can help eachother thruough this,The holidays are real hard to begin with but when you are an addict they are twice as hard.I am so depressed about tomorow I have never been through Thanksgiving without my family. Now I keep thinking what if they never talk to me again.My mom said she hated me and wished she never had me 2 months ago and told my fiaunce if I ever set foot on her property or call her she will call the police.I know I messed up by doing these drugs but shes acting like im a serial killer or something.I am her only daughter and she is supposed to love me no matter what.I also keep having these bad dreams about my mom walking by me and I am calling her crying and yelling mom and she just keeps walking.Then I dream of getting a big bottle of Tussionex or vikes and feeling high and happy. I just can not take this.Anyways if anyone could please respond tonight I will be so greatful I need all the help I can get and tonight is so hard for me.I just cant calm down.Talk to you soon I hope.
Your Friend,
Kelley.

[hoapfloats]

Thank you so much Phil for taking the time to repond to me.I was hoping you would you always know the right thing to say.I am not in NA right now I have never been.Should I go? Will it help? I know where an NA meeting is I think I should check it out. Phil can you tell me your story? What were you addicted to? how long have you been sober for? Sorry for being a nosy rosey!! I just really look up to you and would love to hear what has helped for you and how you made it through your addiction. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving. Is your wife cooking or you? I am a horrible cook so Spencer and his dad are cooking a big turky tomorow. I hope I have an appitite.
Your Friend,
Kelley.