I Got the AM Blues

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Ohhh those late night meetings are usually so cool. Sometimes - well here anyway - they do a candle light meeting. It's really neat - or I always thought so. Also makes it a little easier to share for the newcomers because it's dark. LOL

Glad you've confirmed the location and that you have confirmed there is actually a meeting taking place there. I hope it goes well for you. I know you'll be nervous...but I think you'll like it once you get past the initial wierdness of it. Remember - just a bunch of people there like you and me.

Did you try the relaxation technique I posted last night for going to sleep? When I was in WD and couldn't go to sleep it often helped - not every time - but often - even if it was just a few hours of sleep.

Sleep...ahhhh..boy I'd like to have some right now. My youngest thinks she has to get up with the chickens when we're off work and school. But come Monday when school starts back I wont be able to blast her butt out of the bed. THe kids are going to my moms tonight - yipee for me. I know that sounds awful..but I could really really really use some down time right now.

I probably won't be awake when you get home from your meetings because it's 3 hours later here than where you are - I'll surely be passed out by then I hope. But please do post how it went and what you thought and what you got out of it...even what you didn't like if anything. I'd love to read it when I wake up. I always read the board while I'm having my morning coca-cola caffiene blast and one of those nasty cig's I still smoke. That's next on my list - gotta stop smoking.

We had a lady at work die a couple of months ago with lung cancer. Was painting her bathroom one day and thought she pulled a muscle in her back. Went to the doctor and they found lung cancer - a very aggressive form. She was dead like 6 months later. The family had just moved here and didn't really have any friends. Some of us ladies at work took turns with our sick leave and sat with her toward the end because she couldn't even feed herself and was constantly hallucinating and climbing out of bed and stuff. It was hard because to her we were basically strangers, but it scared the CRAP out of me. She left a 10 year old son and husband. Why did I bring that up??? Gosh I don't mean to be depressing - sorry. I guess I've been thinking about her lately. So sad.

Anyway - now that I've depressed everyone (gosh I hope not) I'll go for now. Everyone hang in there!!!!!!!

[Arememom]

Hey 2k777,

Get to that meeting tonight. I'll be in one too. Hope you're feeling better, I'm a little better.

[rk33]

I was hoping you would get some sleep last night, I was thinking of you this morning when I logged on, Kev

[sk777]

Okay, can anyone spell agoraphobia? Now I know why I haven't left the house...

I'm exaggerating, of course, I went out, went to the store, located meeting site and went to pharmacy to pick up naughty, naughty imitrex. Okay, I know I've been using a lot of my migraine meds this week. I tried not to use anything yesterday but last night my head was killing me and I couldn't sleep and then I start thinking, which is what they tell you, that if you don't catch it early the med won't work, and what if this lasts for days, and maybe it'll go away for sure this time... Anyway, pharmacist comes over for a little chat about making sure I'm not overusing them, not taking them preventatively, said "Okay, I'm going to dispense this, but..." I wanted to scream. I felt like I was picking up oxy and was sitting there telling him I accidentally spilled them down the drain or something, even though I didn't lie to him, I just omitted that I thought the migraines were because I'm in w/d. Anyway, I know I read that when you stop drugs you have to sort of relearn everything, and I will learn all those subtleties about what's really addiction and what's not, but I just felt exactly like I did when I would lie to get DOCs. Guilty and lying.

Also, the neuro who prescribed them told me just not to take them more than 4 days/wk. I took one on day 5. Excuuuuuse me.

Okay, calming down, he's just doing his job, this is all me and my head... breathing, breathing. To quote one of my favorite songs, this isn't trauma, it's not even drama...

So, how are y'all?



I nearly forgot the best part, he was telling me that there were other meds to deal with migraines, such as morphine. Hahahahahahahaahahahahaahaha.

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LOL Morphine..perfect. And you just stood there and nodded and said yep...but we're not going there!! I can't believe he lectured you about Imitrex and then suggested Mrophine. That's toooooo funny. Find the humor in everything - it makes this easier.

Ah yes the lying. To the doctor...yes it still hurts - especially at night, to the pharmacy..yeah I just need them a little early because I'm going out of town, to the other pharmacy....no I don't have my insurance card with me, I'll pay cash, to the other doctor...ummmm no I don't think I've ever taken that before...oh okay..thanks for telling me it will make me loopy - I'll wait until I get home to take that for sure, to the husband....honey I don't know what happened to all my money this week - I guess it's because gas has gotten so high - damn oil companies. Makes me feel horrible to think back about that stuff. So...I don't generally think back about all that stuff. I did just then because once again..wanted to tell you you're not alone...been there done that and much worse - not proud of who I was then - but I am now. That's another sure sign for ya - it gets better - it really does. Pretty soon you'll be able to laugh at all the silly stuff you did and said and it won't hurt so bad.

Hope you enjoy your meeting tonight. Keep taking those deep breaths. You're doing fine.

Ordering a scary movie...love them...haven't chilled out and watched a movie in I don't know when. Hooray for me!! I'm SO SO happy to be free of the prison of the little amber bottles.