19/M Addicted to OxyContin

bshea · 12-07-2005, 01:48 PM

well lets see, im 19 and for a good bit now ive been taking a bunch of random pills in the past few months, started low from hydro.. morphine, .. even diludid, (cant spell). And the worst part is i dont need them.. b/c i have no pain, i just started buying them, and now ive blown all of my money and im down to my last cent trying to get enough to keep up my habit. which i know i cant... im not sure how to get away my nasty habit, and all the craving. ive tryed tapering, and failed many times, seems the only way would to go cold turkey if i could even do it. im not exactly sure how long ive been taking opiates, but i know its been over a few months at least, and i need to get off this b/c ive got a car payment and i cannot be broke.
the only time ive been prescribed was when i got my wisdom teeth out, and in a few weeks i have to get a mole removed b/c of cancer in it, and i know their gonna give me some weak stuff, b/c they gave my dad 'darvocet', but thats not till after the 15th of this month at least. i just dont know what to do....

Moronovich · 12-07-2005, 11:35 PM

I sounded like you over 20 years ago. I still do.

Where do you want to be in 20 years? On this board as an addict? It wasn't my dream at 19 to be a forty-something addict. But I am.

You can quit now or quit later. The longer you do it the harder it is to quit. Bad habits die slowly. Old habits don't want to die.

Dilaudid (hydromorphone) is powerful stuff. It's 10 times the power of hydrocodone and morphine. Avoid it. Addiction to that stuff is hell on earth. Trust me - i've been there.

Hydrocodone (Vicodin, Lortab) and morphine are about the same in the body and are both quite addictive and equally dangerous. I'm strung out on hydro now. It's evil stuff.

Darvocet/Darvon are propoxyphene - in the methadone family - and although it's the lesser of these evils it's addictive too. It is evil.

So you're pill poppin for the high. At 19 that's not unusual. What scares me most is that you don't seem to know much about what you're taking or the consequences of what happens when you take too much for too long - or get caught with those.

You know what to do. Quit. Now.

What are you taking now? Today? How much? What happens when you don't take any for a day?

Do you have any friends or relatives that know about your habit that would be sympathetic to your cause? If you have someone willing to knowingly help you then one option is to travel somewhere for a few days or a week - let your friend drive you - don't drive yourself - and only bring enough pills to taper off safely. Go somewhere you can't buy more. You'll quit. You won't have any other option. The challenge is not getting high the day you return. Can you do that?

I did that a few times when I was your age and it "worked" for me - at least I got off the drug. My problem was that I went back to it a few weeks or months later. So you may want to get into AA or NA. And most importantly - change your friends! "New places and new faces."

tina76 · 12-07-2005, 11:41 PM

If you can possibly handle it I would try to go cold turkey at this point. I normally recommend to people to taper if they can because I hate people having to go thru the awfulness of going c/t. But my thought for you is one of concern regarding your upcoming surgery. I'm worried that because of your tolerance to pain meds that you are going to end up in some awful pain after the surgery because the meds that they will give you won't be strong enough. Even if you go c/t I am unsure that your tolerance will lower enough... This is a tough one. I feel really bad for you!

The other thing that I would highly recommend is t seek help from your doctor. I know how scary and horrible that sounds. But it will be your best bet. Especially if you have a doctor that you feel comfortable with. It will be best for you to be honest with them NOW so that when you have your surgery they will know of your problem and be able to A) appropriately treat your pain and B)help you moniter your use of meds to ensure that you don't get further into this addiction problem. I wish you the very best of luck! Keep posting so that we know how you are doing!

hoyt · 12-08-2005, 12:19 AM

You can't afford to ruin your life with an opiate addiction, you should do everything possible to get rid of this as soon as you can.

bshea · 12-08-2005, 09:28 AM

thanks for the reply, well the past few days i havent taken much at all.. i used to take alot, and before all of this i smoked a lot of weed for about a year, till i got caught with that and had no problem stoppping that.. but now i got myself in a worse habit. sometimes ill take 80mg of oxy, or even more, and ive been reading a lot about pills/drugs for awhile. and i know someone whos on pain meds for a back problem.. and knows what im going through.. b/c hes the supplier.. =x. this morning i took a few codeines to ease the w/d. yesterday i only took one 40mg oxy. which i know is very strong. ive gone on trips away and everything and got away find with bringing just a little bit. and then when i returned i got back into more. its a damn cycle.
and i know the trouble of these pills, but belive me i never carry a lot on me, only enough to take when i get pulled over, been there and done that. ive had my troubles with weed and thats why i stopped, but this is a lot harder, GOD DAMN addicting ;x and i hate the craving. but i belive that theres a reason for everything, and i know ill get through with this. i just have to lose the crave. i also have a few tramadol's. and i know that helps with w/d. how much is recommended to take of those? i know they sell them online... b/c i know someone who got them offline. lol. not to cheap but better then spending it on other stuff.