I am on methotrexate. I too was very scared about the side effects. So far, nothing!!! I have been taking it for @2months,4 little itty bitty pills, every Sunday. The only side effect I have it a mild, and I mean mild, mild stomach cramp once in awhile and I am a little more tired than usual, but that could just be the RA itself.
WOW, $400/month, I only pay $20.00 copay, I'd have to ask the Pharmacist what the "real" cost is. I can't imagine it being that high, or there would be a generic for it (or maybe this is) don't really know.
I say you have to trust your Dr.s at some point. They are there to help you. My RA Dr. is the best. He always listens to me, understands my concerns and I don't think would prescribe something he thought would hurt me. Kinda like flying, I am terrified to fly, my sister has been a flight attendent for over 20 years and she's like this "Do you really think the pilot wants to die, he's not going to crash the plane, so don't worry". The same is so of your Dr. He's not going to make you die and get all these terrible side effects. He believes in the drug, I would trust him.
As far as feeling better, I don't know yet. I for sure have'nt had as many flare ups, but I need to give it time. I've only been on it a bit and my Dr. said it takes 2-3 months to really work.
Good Luck, have faith in your Dr.s, they (at least mine) are looking out for you. Heck, they don't want to loose a patient either!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!