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Old 05-08-2006, 03:46 PM   #1
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Question Research done this might help others understand addiction

For those of you who dont know my story I am an addict. My DOC was lortab 10/500 about 8-10/day for past 6 most before then about 5/day for 2yrs. I am 3 weeks clean today I believe!!! My problem is my fiance just doesn't understand what addiction is. He thinks since I'm clean and not taking any pills that I don't want them. We fought terrible about my addiction, stealing from him (his Pills), lying about how many I really took you name we fought over it. I decided that I couldnt live like this with the pills and him. I didnt want to loose him for my pills. Long story short. When I was taking the pills he finally went and bought a safe to stop me from stealing. I thinks that was almost my rock bottom point like how can he not trust me type of deal. I felt like a scum bag from becoming what I became. Well now he just leaves his pills around the house. I cant tell how that makes me feel. I'm glad that he now trusts me with them but then I'm pissed cause its like hes setting me up to fail! I said to him yesterday can you please lock them up so they arent right in front of my face. He got mad that I asked like fine I guess for the rest of my life I have to LOCK up my stuff. He said I dont know what your worried about you havent taken any why would you want to. I tell him that I am an addict and everytime I walk by his bottle I want to take them all and get wasted. But I dont. He says I'm not an addict and this is in my head and to get over it. How can he one day say I need rehab or he's leaving me and the next day say I'm not an addict. How do you explain what an addict is. He doesnt look at taking pills as an addiction he looks at coke addicts, crack addict, heroin addicts as the only kind of addict. I told he needs to go to the library and research what addiction is and that I am an addict bottom line!!! How do I get through his thick skull? Anyone else have to deal with this. They want us to get clean but dont take the time to understand it. I know rambling but I dont know how to get through to him without blowing up! Any advice on how to deal with this. Thanks Kim

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Old 05-08-2006, 07:49 PM   #2
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Ok I've been researching this alot and maybe this will help others understand the addiction part of somethings.
1) Some people are born with a gene that makes them prone to addiction. This gene is resposible for all forms of addiction. You have a 50% probability to pass this gene on to offspring. (Which explains why I got it, mom addicted to pain meds, dad alcoholic, aunt alcoholic, uncle crack addiction, alcoholic, grandma alcoholic, all uncles alcoholics, a few aunts alcoholics) Hmm making a connection here I guess we all got that gene.

2) If you do not have the addiction gene you will not get an addiction if. But is possible to become dependant on a drug but once you w/d from it you will leave the drug and have no desire to return. Addicts dont do that, regardless of their wishes or beliefs to the contrary.

3)Withdrawl from pain meds is ofter long-term and painful with much anxiety.

4)Changes in the brain that turned us into compulsive users make it daunting enough task to control our actions and complete treatment. Which makes it difficult to resist the cravings which become more irresistible whenever we are exposed to any situation that triggers memory of the euphoric experience of drug use.

5)Addiction is a brain disease. While everyone has their own trigger for affecting or transforming the brain, many of the results of the transformation are strikingly similar regardless of the addictive drug being used. The addiction becomes the single most powerful motivator in the life of the drug user. They will do virtually anything for the drug.

6)Addiction is characterized by compulsive, drug craving, seeking and use that persists even in the face of negatice consequeces.

7)There is a genetic predisposition to dependance. The genetic bases of dependance involves multiple genes of the genoma. Activation transcription of the receptor in the dopaminergic system seems to lead to the activation of an specific gene (C-fos) responsible for the activation of the FOS related protien. The protein may have a neuroadaptive role for the repetitive administration of drugs.

8) For many drugs, craving does not happen during w/d syndrome but when the drugs maximal effect begins to wane.9)Being exposed to your DOC the craving will increase for it although the euphoria will decrease.

Hope this was helpful!! Kim
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Old 05-09-2006, 12:30 AM   #3
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Re: Can someone help me on this one!

HELLO KITTIE, well thats alot to think of,but i didnt drink smoke nothing, when i got hurt i jumped right into herion,my dad never even drank?i wonder if for some like me , i just wanted to feel NOTHING,i was hurt and it took all of it away? mental pain??? even now if i feel hurt its like i feel a need for that high, why? thats strange ,i just thought i was weak?
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Old 05-09-2006, 01:08 AM   #4
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Re: Can someone help me on this one!

Kim, I personally find this to be an awesome post! So many people have said it, but it is true. The battle is in staying clean, not in getting clean. My taper is going great, but I am scared to death of when I am done. I hope you are still posting when I am finished with my taper, because I am going to need all the support I can get. Thanks for the research, posting and caring!
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Old 05-09-2006, 03:34 AM   #5
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Hey Kim...sorry to hear your hubby is being so incredibly insensitive. When I was living back at my parents' house I was stealing my Mom's Percocet, Vicodin, Demerol, etc right from her purse every day without ever thinking twice about it. Finally she confronted me about the pain pills and boy was I ashamed. She told me she would never keep another pain pill in the house ever again. There was a time she would keep hers and my Father's scripts right out in the kitchen and I never gave them a second glance. Then there became where I would salivate at the very sound of a pill bottle, regardless of what it was.
I wish your hubby would take into consideration ALL you have been through in your effort to get and stay clean and realize that 3 weeks is a short time to be clean(although so absolutely wonderful for you!). Some people just don't understand the seduction of a prescription bottle for some. Like I am sure you can keep a bottle of Vodka in the house or some Bailey's or whatever and not even think twice about it. You know what I mean? Maybe you should try to give that analogy to your hubby...would you wave a bottle of Jack in front of a recovering alcoholic, just because they didn't have a drink in 7 months.
Okay I am done rambling. I just get upset at people who don't understand addiction for what it really is...it is so complex.
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