Oh Sons-
I'm sorry you are having a hard time with this. It makes it very hard to stay off the meds when the wds are coming at you full steam ahead. I don't know what advice to give as far as tapering, but keep checking back because there are people here who can give you some sound advice.
I just wanted to drop you a quick line and let you know you have our support. You made a brave choice, and if you stick with it, you will hopefully be feeling much better soon sweetie.
Hang in there and take one day at a time. Get support from where ever you can find it, whether its NA, family, friends, these boards, etc. You can do it, and once you get over this very first, hard part, things will get better for you.
Good Luck!!
Lezlee