Just for Today....

[Caruna]

Hello Alll,
Im new to this board , but its very nice that there are so many people willing to support each other. I look foward to being there for others when I get through my own stuff . So I've been clean for a little more than 24 hours, and its already starting to get rough. Im detoxing from heroin, and in the last month I started mainlining it, which I'm sure is gonna make the next days/weeks even worse than it otherwise would have been (not that it was gonna be a stroll through the park either way, as many of you know opiates make for a very vengeful demon, when you stop giving it the attention that it never deserved). I don't want to go to meetings, simply because around here it seems to be more of a glorified convention for dealers than anything else (Im in a bad area, Im not in any way denegrating meetings, they have saved the lives of many people close to me, and are a god send as far as Im concerned, its just very important to find the right one, and the right sponsor ect..). I have a vague idea of whats to come as Ive been to this general area before, though ofcourse, not to this exact location and just as I dread the pain I accept it as the price I need to pay to get back to life, which is by itself more wonderous than any drug. To those of you that have been clean for a while I hope this serves to remind you of the reasons that you kicked this awful habit. Well one of many reasons that is, being so attached to something , is just old and tedious to say the least. Anyways I was wondering if anyone would be so kind as to give me some advice on how to get through the next few days , of the real physical pain. I have no help in the form of methadone, but Ive always been skeptical of that in any case, but it would be nice to have some help , if even for the next three days --but I'll survive without it. Besides I'll keep this pain clear in my mind , so that I remember clearly the consequences of my bad decisions. But if anyone could give me some advice, as to maybe some vitamins, or something that can help me through these days , it would be much appreciated. But either way, just being able to write this , and read other peoples posts is unexplainably helpful and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for that

[bkim]

Hey Caruna, Visit and post on this site as much as you can. If you are concerned about the meetings in your area of town, why not go to one in another area? You dont have to go to them, but the face to face support is a good thing really. If not, well you have this board for support and it is a very helpful place. If you are doing the opiate c/t thing....its going to be painful for about 2-4 days. There is really no way around that one. Its just 2-4 days. That is not really that long when you really think about it. I would just be prepared for feeling pretty bad for the next couple of days. Try to keep yourself hydrated. Drink as much water as you can. Also, I would hate to see you have to go through such pain again once you make it through the physical w/d. The emotional w/d for the first 30 days or so is the killer. Exercise has been a great tool for me.

[Neverforget]

Hi Caruna - I'm just wondering if you're still hanging in there?

[kiam0675]

I hope your still hanging in there. Dont let the w/d's stop you from staying clean. Get yourself some immodium I heard the liquid is the best also helps with w/d's and dark chocolate too. Valerium Root to help you sleep, St John Wort for depression and anxiety. Valerium will help with the Restless legs too oh and quinine pills or tonic water with quinine will help too with RLS. Stick with it, its only a few days the first couple will be tough. Especially with shooting I heard it makes the body crave it more. You will get through it. Its worth the 3-5 days of feeling crappy to get your life back. Keep posting and keep bz so you dont cave in and use. Heroin is tough to kick but it can be done and your ready to stop the madness thank God for that. Its a downhill struggle and will get you know where fast. Unless you want to go to jail. Not saying you would but seems thats where most addicts end up. You can do it stay strong keep posting so we know how you are.

[kadee]

Get mentally prepared for the W/D, recording in a time journal helps, on what is going on because on the 3nd day you will be a little more focused to read what symptoms are passing, the offset and onset of your symptoms, it's nice to flip back and reread how your body is ridding the pain on it's own, at home get lots of blankets and rest, stay hydrated and close to the the b/r. The NA Text is very attractive literature. I hope you have the space to be able to do this in your own home without bumping into anyone else. You are going to be very sick. (It will later be your gift.) Can you find someone in recovery who has been through what you going through, ask them to call you, it's part of the program, and you can call them instead of calling your dealer when you want to pull the F/I muscle. Try to erase the phone numbers in your head, get rid of all paraphernalia, delete or throw out phone numbers of using friends or dealers, Don't think. Don't think. Just get through the first 4 to 7 days then you can start staballizing your recovery plan. The above board has a home detox vitamin plan, eat a banana every day, eat rice, lots of herb tea and water, stay away from foods that are acidity or spicy and I would recommend staying away from coffee for the first week..Peppermint tea helps headache pain, 2 to 3 long baths a day with half a cup of epson salt helps the kicks and the crawlies. Chamomile tea with honey will help you sleep. You won't get a lot of that until your 4th day, you might get nightmares. Record them, decode them, Then it will be over and the worst will be done and then you can start to have your life back.
t/c
kadee