omg, sigh... I'm not alone...

[jkm1201]

I guess basicly I'm exhuasted. Seems to be a never ending search for the right answer... I try one thing and when it doesn't work, I try another... always to find myself at the same place everytime. Lost, frustrated, searching... for the right answer, again. sigh... I know your right about the hormone stuff, and that certainly doesn't help my recovery (massive mood swings, constant hot flashes and night sweats) I had a total abdominal hysterectomy. After many years of fighting endometriosis and a very difficult and complicated pregnancy I gave in and had the surgery. Just in time really, because in biopsy they found precancerous cells (later determined to be limited only to my uterus, thankfully) Gyn. doctor told me at the time that I would be on Premarin for the rest of my life (same doc mind you that sent me home w/ vicodin when I was only 15 and supplied endless refills for many years) again... sigh. Do you see how I kinda feel set up by the medical profession?... again, more hesitation regarding my appt. w/ addiction doctor. Trying desperately to remember that this doctor will be specifically trained in seeing past my b/s and attempts at manipulation so it will be different. right?... My attempt at accountability...
So, I made it through the weekend w/o going insane or popping pills. That's the most important thing, above all the confusion, I made it another day. Thanks for the support and encouragement. Take care.
OH! p.s. I mis-spoke when I said 'energy' stuff, they're actually called 'dietary supplements'. Basically a multi vitamin. and yes Michigan, please send the link. Wait, are we allowed to post links? I dont think so... can you tell me the name? Thanks for the input.

[harmony8299]

jkm,

Hey I finally got back to the computer and read your posts.
I think that you sound very smart and informed about your choices. That is definitely a good first step. I can only suggest that you keep researching your options and trying different things until you find what works for you. Its probably worth going to the appt. just to hear what they say, but I would strongly suggest you then make up your own mind about whats best for you.

My mom went through the same thing and for years she swore by her Premarin and other HRT's given by doctor. She eventually, for her own reasons, decided to go the natural route and take vitamins and supplements and eat healthy and exercise. She was terrified of this at first, but now swears she feels better than ever.

Just sharing the experience, but again, I strongly suggest you look into all of your choices and try different ways until you find whats right for you. Nobody else can tell you what will be right for you and your body. They may be able to give suggestions, and whatnot, but ultimately its your body and you must decide what is best for it.

I know that it is hard and confusing, but stay strong and positive and you will find the way thats right for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sending all the positive thoughts, strength, and hope I can!!!!!!!
Let me know if you need to talk.

Hugs,
Harmony

[jkm1201]

harmony, I need to talk!... j/k
really harmony, I'm greatful to you for sharing your mothers story with me. It gives me hope. I see the addiction doctor tommorrow afternoon, I have a notebook full of questions, and I plan to take up every minute of the scheduled 3 hour appt. asking them.
Thanks so much for your support and positive energy. I'll keep it w/ me during my appt. By the way, how have you been my dear? Take care.

[harmony8299]

jkm,

Hey sweetie! Good Luck at the appt. and its good that you have all your info and questions all ready. I hope everything goes ok for you!!! Let me know how it goes as soon as you get done,

And, Ive been doing ok, fairly good really. Im on day 11 and every day gets easier! Thanks for checking on me and best of luck to you at the appt.!!!!!!!!!

Harmony