Ready for detox

kandr73 · 06-25-2007, 04:01 AM

Possitive encourgement only please. Well I went to the store got some cranberrie juice, some leg cramp medicine w/ quinine and other herbs for restless legs and pain, and some benedryl. I have a couple immodiam, and prazac. So here it goes, for good this time. If that is clearly enough put. My husband is off tomorrow and I wil be able to rest, then we will see about how the rest of the week plays along.

maggie0704 · 06-25-2007, 02:48 PM

Hi Kandra:
I just wanted to let you know that you'll be in my prayers these coming days. I have been thru detox 2x and it is extremely difficult. And i am facing detox again and am having big time anxiety about it. But one good thing, and it seems that you also have support thru your husband, is that i have support of family and friends and don't have to do this alone.
Yes, i will be the only one physically suffering, but i can lean on people when needed and that is an important part of recovering. Don't put too high of expectations on yourself to feel better for a certain date or anything. Be patient and kind to yourself. Let yourself relax and sleep as much as possible during this time. I think i remember reading your post where you stated you were taking about 14 vics and 10ultram per day......so you need to be prepared for the length of the detoxing. The only reason i'm saying this is bcuz i have wanted to get clean many times over the past yr. and have always put reasons up to why i couldn't do it. I didn't have enough time or i had to be "o.k." for my friends wedding next weekend, etc......
So if there is ever a time to focus on "you" , it is now.
For me, like CODER said in another thread, the anxiety was the hardest part to deal with....so i would make sure you have some type of anxiety med. available and Benadryl (Benadryl was given to me in rehab to help me sleep and it really helped).
Anyways, stock up on what u think is important off the "detox plan" thread and bunker down for a while. Don't expect too much out of yourself and just focus on what good you are trying to do for yourself by starting this.
God Bless!

kandr73 · 06-25-2007, 03:28 PM

Well Im fine right now, didnt take the last two ultram. I took a sleeping pill(ovt) last night about 50 mG of the same thing as benadryl. Then I tool some clonidine, I did take the last 1mg Ativan I had.

I got every empty bottle of vicodin, soma and others I could find and through them out. I also took all the other prescription bottles, such as my hubbys high blood pressure, and ibprofen, and put them in a drwaer, so I dont have to look at any orange bottles, especially the ones that hold 120 pills that I love seeing full. So hopefully out of sight out of mind. We can hope right.

maggie0704 · 06-25-2007, 04:11 PM

I just want to make a suggestion....and don't take it for anything else but that...a suggestion. Because i am sooo guilty of not doing what is best for myself on a daily basis, so i have no room to judge. But i have witnessed and experienced difficulty staying sober without outside influences. Such as meetings, out-patient rehab, etc.... I'm sure you know all about this stuff, but in all truth, it is SO important in staying on the road to recovery. I was sober for 6mos. and started getting lazy around month 4 of my sobriety (from pills).....stopped going to meetings bcuz i was lazy and within 2mos., i relapsed. And i know in my heart that if i would have kept up with the mtgs. i would have had a much greater chance at staying clean. But without people to talk to and share my feelings/concerns/fears/anger/anxiety with, i went "within" for my strength, which unfortunately is not a good choice in early recovery. We are just not strong enough in the early stages.
So my advice would be to do something outside of home, maybe even just find a sponsor to call when needed. That helped me out a ton, but unfortunately i stopped calling her too bcuz i felt like a bother and ended up relapsing.
You have to be really ready to quit. That is the truth! And if you are really ready to stop the madness, than you can get thru this. And having outside support is vital right now. Bcuz even though my husband is a recovering addict and has almost 3yrs. clean time, he can not help me get better. I need someone non-biased who can tell me exactly what i need to hear (even if i don't want to hear it).
That is a good thing that u got rid of those bottles, any sign of the "packaging" of those things could send u into a craving and not having them in sight is a good step. If your still feeling o.k. right now than enjoy the time and stay busy. And keep us posted no matter how bad your feeling -we're here for you to listen and pray.

steveblack · 07-02-2007, 03:43 PM

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Originally Posted by maggie0704

I just want to make a suggestion....and don't take it for anything else but that...a suggestion. Because i am sooo guilty of not doing what is best for myself on a daily basis, so i have no room to judge. But i have witnessed and experienced difficulty staying sober without outside influences. Such as meetings, out-patient rehab, etc.... I'm sure you know all about this stuff, but in all truth, it is SO important in staying on the road to recovery. I was sober for 6mos. and started getting lazy around month 4 of my sobriety (from pills).....stopped going to meetings bcuz i was lazy and within 2mos., i relapsed. And i know in my heart that if i would have kept up with the mtgs. i would have had a much greater chance at staying clean. But without people to talk to and share my feelings/concerns/fears/anger/anxiety with, i went "within" for my strength, which unfortunately is not a good choice in early recovery. We are just not strong enough in the early stages.
So my advice would be to do something outside of home, maybe even just find a sponsor to call when needed. That helped me out a ton, but unfortunately i stopped calling her too bcuz i felt like a bother and ended up relapsing.
You have to be really ready to quit. That is the truth! And if you are really ready to stop the madness, than you can get thru this. And having outside support is vital right now. Bcuz even though my husband is a recovering addict and has almost 3yrs. clean time, he can not help me get better. I need someone non-biased who can tell me exactly what i need to hear (even if i don't want to hear it).
That is a good thing that u got rid of those bottles, any sign of the "packaging" of those things could send u into a craving and not having them in sight is a good step. If your still feeling o.k. right now than enjoy the time and stay busy. And keep us posted no matter how bad your feeling -we're here for you to listen and pray.

I think i can share my suggestion here.
I really dont think it wud harm anyone.
Whenever I have any form of depression or anxiety problems.
I do something very stupid and it works for me.
I keep drinking a lot of water. I keep drinking more and more water.
I dont know if it is my body's relation with water or something in my mind, but it works for me.
I do that when i want to avoid smoking also.

I dont know if it makes sense to you or not.
It works for me. Any suggestions.