Oxycodone addict needs a friend - Page 2

Winnie31 · 12-20-2007, 10:37 AM

How's it going today Bassmaster? Did you get some sleep last night? I agree with Grannyo if it were summer there are so many more things that you could do to occupy you time. I think if you were to get out a little more, get some fresh air that helps rather than being cooped up in your home. So how are you going to handle your dealer? I too am facing that!! Although my dealer is a pain doctor last week he asked me if I needed refills and for the first time in close to eight years I turned them down. But I know in the back of my head all it takes is a phone call. Right now I am in the middle of the cravings and depression, but they say it does get better with time. Post back and let us kmow how you are doing today!

Winnie

BassMaster28 · 12-21-2007, 02:05 AM

well my dealer called me about six times today and i turned him down everytime i told him that i was getting off the stuff and he through a fit because he wants my money and he thinks that i'm his friend but hes not any friend i would want hes worse then i am but just hasn't realized it yet the withdraws are over now now i'm in the deep depression your right i need something to do today i just went on some walks even though it's cold as hell out it seemed to help for a bit tomorrow i'm going to go apply for a job and that should help my mood i wish it was summer too i live to go fishing don't really get to go out on the boats but i got a few spots i go to i only went fishing a few times this summer because of these pills never had the time spent too much time trying to find more percs but i love the winter too when we get a decent snow i think i'll go snow boarding if i can save up some money treat myself for staying clean i'm trying to stay as possitive as i can but it is hard at times thank you guys for your suport you are right you do hold on to every word i think i'm doing pretty good but i'm not letting my guard down or i will slip well i'm gonna go now play some games i guess it's about the only thing to do at 1am when you know your not getting any sleep anyways lol i got some restoril but i'm not gonna take them i'll just get hooked and go from one drug to another

joanharvest · 12-21-2007, 02:20 AM

My son lives for fishing. It is the one thing that has kept him clean from opiates for almost three years. He had a short term problem with crack last winter because he didn't make it to Florida soon enough. He is now living in Buffalo, not a good place for a fisherman. He is coming home for Christmas and then plans on getting to Florida somehow so he can work as a first mate on a charter boat. It's what he does best. He's trying to save enough money to get there. Hopefully he will get there after Christmas and get a first mate job. He'll even work in a restaurant just to be in the warm weather. I think he has SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Staying up here for the winter always screws him up. Fishing is his life. He is always happy when he is fishing or helping other people fish.

BassMaster28 · 12-21-2007, 02:38 AM

i know exactly how he feels i am fine when i am fishing i'm so happy and content don't need a thing don't even need to catch a fish just being in the outdoors with some bait and my rod has your son ever tried ice fishing i personlly never have but i hear there a few good places to ice fish here i might give it a shot a fish is a fish no matter whatever temperture water it lives in but yea i can relate durring the winter you coup yourself up and then you get depressed if your not already so then you resort to your old habbits i've been there before but this last time was different a girl actually is what drove into the ground this time lol i have a soft heart and tend to let people take advantage of me so she did and i said screw it i don't care no more hope you have a happy holidays with your family

Winnie31 · 12-21-2007, 11:36 AM

I'm proud of you for standing up for yourself..of course your dealer is mad like you said he wants your money. You and I are in the same boat this depression sucks!!!! Hopefully it won't last long. Another thing I hate are these cravings.. they are driving me nuts. Hopefully they pass pretty soon to. The days seem so long and thats probably because I'm not "high" anymore so I guess I'll take one day at a time and be proud of that. I don't know if you've read any of Yoss's posts but he has a saying at the end that says KEEP ON KEEPIN ON and that's what we need to do. Good Luck!!!

Winnie