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[sndman66]

well im comming up on my first day without at exactly 3:00am when i leave for work i feel pretty crappy. i am hoping since i tapered (iwent two days of 6 then two days of 4 than one day of 3 and then one day of 2)that this might not be as long of wd as last timei went through a lot of the aches on monday and tuesday they have stopped just real restless and depressed. i didnt have time to taper the way i wanted but like other people have stated its just not there i need to go c/t. any suggestions for today would be appreciated i have b-6 a multi and some restoril for sleep.

[okieatheart]

Hey snd! Welcome back! I'm really glad you tapered some it should definetely help with the w/d's! I was never able to do that so I had to go c/t from30-40 5mg oxys or 20-25 10/500 lortabs a day...whichever I could get my hands on! So I think that made the w/ds worse,my body went into complete shock! As for the depression,that may hang around for awhile,be careful with that because alot of people relapse because the depression and cravings can get really ugly and unfortunately they tend to hang around for awhile....BUT!!! It really,really,really does get better! And when I say better that's putting it mildly! It's an undescribable good feeling on not being addicted to those lil devils anymore!!! You can do this!! Just hang tight,grit your teeth and bear the ride!!! It will be soooo worth it!
Keep posting cuz it really helps!
Take care and A BIG OKIE HUG FOR YOU!!

[sndman66]

thanks okie

i just got back from work it was short and sweat everyone is eager to go for the weekend so everyone on my stops were waiting for me to drop off my mail. i am eating some chicken and rice soup with a big 1000mg tab of vitamin c i heard that helps its weird i get episodes where i feel i want to say normal no craving no symptoms of w/d and then it goes away the are becoming more frequent that is a good sign i hope. i am still contemplating going to a relative who is a recovering addict and is a doctor. the only thing is that he works for a clinic that monitors thae docs and what they perscribe and his boss is a real dick so i dont know if i want to go to him or not .if i can make it through today i should be okay i have some restoril i will take after the kids go to school and crash.

[verylucky]

Sandman,
I agree with Jeffie. Definitely go to your stepfather. With him being in recovery, he's going to be very understanding and point you in the right direction. I really think you should talk to him.

take care,
verylucky

[sndman66]

its going to be the start of day 3 3:00 am i still feel drained but each hour goes by gets better. i just got done swearing to myself and my wife that i will never let this happen again! i do believe that i can acomplish this and am looking forward to being clean of those pills. i do like and look forward to all correspondance this place is the only place i can express feelings to people that can relate