need some encouragment

sndman66 · 08-31-2003, 07:19 AM

i aM approaching day 4 i am steadily coming out of the fog if i can just get over the worst WHICH I THINK IS OVER .i will be ok i think that things might start tapering down i dont have the leg cramps and i can actually lay in bed not sleep but at least lay there until wife fades out i took 2 tylenol pms and they didnt do anything i think i am going to take a restoril and get a couple hours sleep. i started wondering where i made the mistake. my son is 10 and cant figure out why i am sick my wife told him i have the flu. i fear that i have screwed him over because of this or am i being alittle too dramatic. you know i can tell one thing and thats i am not going to know how to act around peaple now that i am clean

willow123 · 08-31-2003, 07:47 AM

hang in there day 7 here and still flipped in bed like a pancake thinking about all the horrible things ive done and wondering why, i cant relate to life when im clean either but i am going to learn 1 minute at a time, im alway bored im always thinking..its the way it is ive got no love for anything dont feel like doing anything and its not that i dont have the energy... but i feel like not doing 1 thing and thats not getting high and its a start and for now this minute it is good enough for me..the rest will come in time we want everything yesterday the quick fix the fast high, not anymore the sun fees good a hug feels good not being sick feels good 1 thing at a time..be patient hang in there...

Hopefortoday · 08-31-2003, 10:09 AM

Good luck to both of you . . . I know how difficult getting through the withrdrawals is. Just take care of yourselves and take things one day at a time!

chefob1 · 08-31-2003, 11:13 AM

when i was married,living at home and i would be dope sick...it would crush me to feel that way around my girls...they were like 4 and 7 years old..now are 9 and 12...i look back and always will feel guilty that instead of me being there for my girls i was either in w/d's or trying to cop some pills or was too buzzed to enjoy my kids company...i hate to say it...but shame on us...one of the downfalls of addiction is selfishness....chef

Philster2003 · 08-31-2003, 11:42 AM

sndman, Been in your shoes and know the turmoil your are going through. My girls were 11 & 14 when I began my decent. The guilt used to kill me and after I got clean I used to agonize over what I had done. My wife is very very close to the girls and she has told me that the girls are fine, they new what was going on but they see me know and they know there old Dad is back and the kids these days are fairly flexible given what they see and experience in school and outside school. To help me get over the past I look at it as a chapter in my life, I'm completed the chapter and move on to new wonderful chapters. I had a chapter when I was in high school, one when I was in college, one for my 20's years, 30 years, etc... Each chapter lived and closed out. I move on and now make each new chapter the very best it can be, work hard not to repeat mistakes and as I've said before, like most things in life you have to work at them they just don't happen so I work hard to never ever abuse drugs again. Hope that helps, but I think you will be fine and your son will be fine also, just stay on your new path and crate new memories with him, he'll warm up and accept the new you as the norm.

Hope that helps

phil