Anal Fissure, please help!

[lbp35]

wjpjr, I am sorry you are still having so much discomfort. I know just how frustrating this can be. Like i said, I am at 5 months and still have wierd feelings where my hemms were removed. I never thought this would be such a disaster! I read some about the botox but just really talked to my colorectal surgeons' assistant about it. She just injected it on the very inside. She did'nt use a scope. I don't know if it makes a difference, but I was so afraid of another surgery that I decided to try it. I don't know if I really needed it because like I said, when I went in she looked at me and said I was almost healed. She said the botox should do it so I went ahead with it. Maybe you will get the same results with your diltiazem but it did take a few weeks so don't get discouraged.I also think my first surgeon did a botched job. MY new surgeon has not said this but I don't think it should take 5 months for someone to totoally heal from hem. surgery. But at my next exam I plan on asking alot of questions regarding this. I know how hard this is to deal with. I went into a depression because of it and saw my family doctor who put me on antidepressants. People who have not gone through this may think this is extreme, but I thought about nothing else and cried alot. I felt and sometimes feel like this will never be over. I have ugly skin tags as a result of this that sometimes get sore. The meds seem to help me cope better, But I can relate to what your saying about all of this. I have to make an effort to enjoy the holidays too, but I am going to try. It's not as bad for me now that my fissure is healed but I am always afraid it will come back. I am hoping and praying for you. Have faith that it will all work out!!!

[wjpjr]

Originally Posted by lbp35

I also think my first surgeon did a botched job. MY new surgeon has not said this but I don't think it should take 5 months for someone to totoally heal from hem. surgery. But at my next exam I plan on asking alot of questions regarding this. I know how hard this is to deal with. I went into a depression because of it and saw my family doctor who put me on antidepressants. People who have not gone through this may think this is extreme, but I thought about nothing else and cried alot. I felt and sometimes feel like this will never be over. I have ugly skin tags as a result of this that sometimes get sore. The meds seem to help me cope better, But I can relate to what your saying about all of this. I have to make an effort to enjoy the holidays too, but I am going to try.

lbp35 - yes this recover can get very frustrating. It seems as though it will never end. I suspect nobody would have this surgery if they were told the real truth initially.

I'm glad your botox treatments went so well. I'm still skeptical about having a needle injected into my as$. Too many people and my currrent doctor told me not to do it.

I saw the surgeon who I have the most trust in now yesterday. He did another internal exam and indicated visually everything look fine. There are three other tests that can be done with sensitive instruments that can determine whether my anal pressure is too high, the outside muscle was damaged, or whether the internal one was damaged in the hemorrhoid tissue removal. I'm scheduled to have the first two done this coming Monday. The instrument for the last test is so scarce that the it needs to be scheduled at another location. After the exam I had a about a 45 minute chat with the surgeon about what could be causing my symptoms. During this chat we discussed the three additional diagnostic tests. It was a very frank and open discussion and included what might of went wrong with my surgery. The length and openness of that discussion is unheard of in my opinion with any doctor I've come in contact with.

I know about being depressed and the additional stress caused by this operation. So I can sympathize with you. I fine myself at times obsessing about my butt hole too. I also have a very ugly tag that gets sore. At times it feels like a lump that does not belong in my as$. It swells and shrinks and feels really weird at times. It seems we all have a part of our body that is not like it use to be. Adjusting mentally to that is the key. Unfortunately that is easier said then done.

Today was not that bad of a day so I hope Christmas day is as good.

I hope you and everyone else has a wonderful and Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Maybe the new year will be better for us all ...

[lbp35]

I am so glad you finally found a doctor who will listen to you! Hopefully you will find out what is going on and will be able to get it fixed! Let me know how the tests go on monday. I had to laugh at the part in your post about obsessing about your butthole! That is me for sure! It is sooohard to just not think about it like people tell you to! Do you have any support from family or friends? My fiance is great and really tries hard to not let me obsess. The skin tag you describe is also exactly what I have, was never there before, is ugly and sometimes gets sore or just plain feels strange??? I have these sensations that I never had before in my As$. I too will follow up with my doctor just for an exam to make sure I'm headed in the right direction. Best of luck to you on Monday, let me know how it goes!