John 3:16, I am thinking about you

[John 3:16]

Hey ladies,

Thanks so much for your concern and support.

Day three and no sub- feel extrememly lethargic today. Didn't know if I was going to be able to make it upstairs to the computer...LOL! My muscles feel like jello. My husband just headed off to church with the kids...I feel so bad for having to "just lay" all day long...better yet, all weekend long. I am still experiencing mild sweats and chills (particularly at night). Been taking Tylenol PM and a muscle relaxer at night and sleeping off and on. Taking my Xanax and Lexapro in the mornings and some Zomig (non-narcotic) for my headaches. This has been rough....I feel very "down" today. I start thinking of what all I have to do this week- take the children to the dentist, have our family portrait for the church directory, and go to my OB as well and all of this overwhelms me. I can't even get dressed I am so tired...how am I going to make it????? We will see. Gosh, just thinking about waking up at 6:30 in the morning to get my daughter dressed and off the school makes me want to cry. I feel like a terrible mother. When they came home from my parents yesterday, it wasn't an hour or so they were all wanting to go back. Probably because they are getting more attention over there and I am too weak and tired to "play" right now and my husband is just trying to tend to the basic chores. Everything feels like a huge mess that will never get better. I don't even remember what it feels like to feel normal or good?????


Anyway, I know I am rambling...Banker, best of luck with your move. Atleast you are "stable" and are able to deal with all of this. I am happy for you.

Rose and Gabbi, thanks for checking on me, too. You girls hang in there as well.

Take care and God bless,
Michelle

[Wakeupcall]

Michelle,

Yes, all of this does seem overwhelming. I remember w/ding twice. I sat on the couch and watched the world go by. But you can not think of it that way. This is a means to an end. It all seems overwelming (and is). Every day will get better. Just try to keep that in mind. Yo stated that you had things to do this week, each day you will feel better. Keep it up
[[[[[[[[[[[[[[BIG HUGS]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]] SHELL

[John 3:16]

Thanks Shell. Every little bit of encouragement helps!

[Gabbi]

Hi,

Listen, you have to do what is best for you right now. You can't expect to just be normal in 3 days, reschedule the appt if you can. Seriously, you cannot be supermom right now do a little and then just sit. Don't feel guilty for your kids now, because you are doing the right thing for them now, and you will feel so proud when you get there. You have to TRY to relax, let the laundry go a little, whatever you have to give yourself some time. After the WD ease (for me day5), started taking that L-tyrosine and it did help give me some energy, and red bull too.
That is what always got me using again "I have so much to do, how can I do this!!!" Knowing that if I pop a few pills I could do it no problem. But it just doesn't work like that. At least your getting some sleep too, that is really great. Here for you anytime and praying for you all the way....rest!!!

Gabbi

[John 3:16]

Thanks again ya'll!

For some reason, things have gotten worse as today progressed. I won't re-hash too much as I posted how I was feeling on a thread right above this, but I did have a little "break down." I was trying to eat some soup and I immediately knew I was about to vomit and ran to the bathroom and just dry-heaved as their is nothing in my stomach and I broke down crying saying,"I can't do this..." my husband got me back in bed and held me while I cried a minute and it passed. It is such a roller-coaster ride.

Well, I am going to hit the hot tub and take my Tylenol PM and a muscle relaxer (out of Soma but my husband has something called Skelaxin). Hope it is descent night as I have to get up at 6:30 to dress my five year old for kindergarten.

Take care ya'll,
michelle