I made it! I am on day 3 and feeling better!

[Creeky]

Hi Everyone,

Well I finally did it. I faced the fear that kept me using (withdrawls) and I won! It wasn't easy, but thank God I got throught it.

Day 1 Sunday, was horriable. I took my last pill at 10:30 Sunday morning. by 3:00 I started feeling the withdrawls. I had the chills, and my face felt hot, and then by 11:00 P.M, I finally grasped the meaning when people say they feel like crawling out of their skin! I took the clonidine, but for some reason it didn't help much at the time. I was bawled on the couch crying hysterically screaming for my husband to take me to the hospital. Whithin minuets I dozed off for about a hour or so from the clonidine and after that I didn't sleep at all. I took ambien for sleep that night, but unfortunatley it didn't help and I was up all night.

Day 2 Monday, I woke up and felt a little better. I was very weak and laid on the couch most of the day. The diarehea started and so did the upset stomache, so I took the immodium and the bentyl. The bentyl helped with the nausea, but the immodium only slowed the diarehea down, but it didn't stop it. I tossed and turned on the couch all day and just couldn't seem to get comfortable. I went to the store with my husband, because I felt like I needed to get outside. I guess I have a touch of cabin fever. I still have back pain, but the Motrin seems to be helping with that. I didn't sleep all day. By 11:00 P.M, I was determing to get some rest because I had not slept the prior night or on the second day. I took 2 Somma's and a Ambien, and off to sleep I went.

Day 3 Tuesday, I woke up at 7:30, and it felt good to get some sleep. I am feeling alot better today, but, I still feel very weak. I cleaned up a little, and the I had to sit down. I still can't eat, which isn't a bad thing because I could stand to loose some weight. My stomache is queezy but I have medicine for that.

I am over the worst yet????? What can I look forward to now? I want to say that I am thankful for having you guys by my side supporting me all the way. All of you have been kind and very supportive and I KNOW I couldn't have done this without you guys! All I know is I will NEVER put another opiate in my mouth again! All I have to do is think about what I went through and it is enough to keep me away from them. I don't know if it is normal, but, I have NO cravings for them whatsoever! Please advise me on what I have to look forward to now, so that I can prepare myself. I have already 2 N/A meeting that I am attending. One is on Friday night, and the other is on Monday night. What else do I need to do? When does the fog lift? When does natural sleep come back? When will I have energy?

I kept using because I feared the withdrawl, but I faced it and hopefully the worst is over now. I never want to go throught it again.......Never!

Again, thank you all for your support. I would not have been able to do this without you guys! I know this sounds stupid because I don't know you guys, but, I love you all from the bottom of my heart!

God Bless & Thank You,
~Creeky

[yinksy]

Well done, Creeky - that is wonderful news! You have done so much more than many others have done - you have had the courage to face the monster and slay it! Yippee! And you see - it wasn't so bad???? LOL
I think you will have another day or two of symptoms and then things will start to get slowly better. Day by day you will feel better and better, your appetite will come back (whether you want it to or not! LOL), Sleep will take a little while .......... I wouldnt advocate the use of any drugs - just give it time and you will start to sleep naturally - 2 or 3 hours at first - but after a week or so you should be sleeping like a baby!
You have so much now to look forward to - dont look back - go forwards and enjoy your sobriety. You have the wisdom too to have back up organised by way of N/A meetings - I cannot emphasise how important this is. I dont believe that a person can beat addiciton on their own.
Way to go, Creeky - revel in your success - the sky is the limit!
Y

[NeverAgain]

Creeky,

That is awesome. I am on day 12 now. For me the first three days were a nightmare.Then everyday after has gotten a little better. The sleep has still not returned fully and my energy level is stil a bit low but improving with everyday. The only thing that has helped me sleeping is hot,hot baths right before I get into bed and I take one goody's P.M. One thing to watch out for now is the mental cravings,. Sunday I just could not get those pills out of my head, but it to has passed. I as you will never let myself go through those horrible W/D's again. I know it will be a daily struggle for me(only on day 12), but nothing like the prision I was living in addicted. I know we can both beat this thing. If I can help you in any way let me know!

B

[Eggman]

Creeky,
How wonderfull , a job well done , and proof of the strength and courage we are actually capable of summoning. You can expect some more bad days but as you know now they wont kill you and the withdrawell monster cant eat you.
I thought that armed with the knowledge of the pain of withdrawel I would surely never ever go through that agan , but I did it time and time again.
For me it took more much more , and I read in your post that you are going to some NA meatings and that is what it took for me. Keep an open mind and look for the people that offer help and experience and love and try to treat those that seam to have only problems and struggles as if they are sick , because they are, and just like you and I they need help .

The Eggman , Im alittle cracked but luckily I am also hard boiled and manage to stay a bit together

[Creeky]

Hi Yinksy, Neveragain & Eggman,

Thank you for responding to my post.

Yinsky, ....you are wonderful, and I appreciate all the kind words. I sure did slay that monster, but it was very hard. You are right about adding more medicine to my body since I got the opiates out of my system. I decided that I am going to take the Ambien one more time, so that I have only taken it for 3 nights. thank you for all of your support and kind words. Oh one good thing came out of this, I lost 13 pounds! YIPEEEE!!!!

Neveragain,.....CONGRATULATIONS! That is great that you are day 12. I am so proud of you! I like you, never want to go through the withdrawls again. So how did you get away from the mental cravings? Was there something that you did? My energy is at a low and I am a little frustrated! I tire very easily and I have no appetite. I am also having some anxiety, is this normal? If so, what should I do about it. My heart is racing and I feel very anxious! Any information that you could give me would be very helpful since you just went through this. Again, thank you for your support and guidance.

Hi Eggman,.....WoW, so you went through withdrawls a few times? I give you a lot of credit. Is it true that it gets worst each time? You had mentioned that going to the meetings is was finally helped you, why is that? If going to the meetings is the answer, then I am all for it. What is it about the meetings that were so helpful? I know I need to go to the meetings because I am knew to this addiction and I feel so alone. I thank God that I found this board because I don't know what I would have done. I have learned so many things from all of you and I am forever grateful. I now have to pick up the pieces of my life and heal from here. One last thing Eggman, I promise you that when I attend my meetings, I will be kind, loving and supportive, because I know we are all there for the same reasons, and that is "To Stay Clean". Thank you Eggman for all of your support.

Again, thank you for your support and any information on what is to come after day 3 would be greatly appreciated.

God Bless you all,
~Creeky