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[Philster2003]

You go gurl, Lisa day 6 is better and day 7 will be better yet.

[willow123]

im trying i cant find the post either, did it disappear..keep up with the meetings you dont have to do all 12 steps in a day,when i went thru n/a it took me a long time to get thru each step and the making amends step was the longest im still doing it,your sounding better each day too, i dread the weekend to much one on one with the hubby and everyone, rather take it easy, but hey thats life..ill post in the am b4 work tgif

[rosietee]

Lisa, I forget--how many were you on daily when you stopped?

thanks for any info,
rosie

[lisaaahubb]

Rosie-------about 6 a day.......somedays a little more ...
This is one of the hardest things i have ever been thru......i just keep waking up every day hoping that i will "FEEL BETTER" and it just flat out is not happening...
I remember being on a very strict taper another time when i quit...you gotta stick to the taper, Rosie, or you are only kidding yourself. I was one of the few that actually COULD do it...i actually separated them into a pill doser, so i would know that each my doses were ready. I didn't do the wake in the middle of the night thing....but the way you taper should be based on the way you take them, all thru out the day, or one big load...Philster is GREAT to help come up with a plan. And remember : we just gotta keep trying....this is a fight for our lives!!!! I hope you are well and your little ones are feeling better as well. I read in another post you are thinking about a short stay in a detox......like just to get thru the w/d????? Not a bad idea. I know they gave me Bentyl, for stomach cramping and boy oh boy these past few days i have NEEDED them...walking around hanging on my gut all doubled over in pain......this plain out sucks!!!!!!It is like, what in the hell did i do to myself?????
Well I hope everything works out for you, i will try to help you any way i can. I have done this a time or two before and are VERY familiar with w/d...
Hey how are the meetings going????? I am having a bit of a hard time w/ them. of course yesterday i made a mistake and ended up in a step meeting, they were on step 3.....YUCK..i have a hard time opening up to people i really don't know, not sure what i think of meetings, now i have people i barely know BUGGING me on a daily basis to get out to a meeting, they want me to do 2 A DAY!!!! I do, have a life and children and 2 a day can not happen in my world. Oh well, maybe it is my addiction making me resist, who knows. I am going to look into an addiction doctor today.
Hang in there ~~~
luv,
LISA

[lisaaahubb]

Hey Willow----TGIF----well, i think so anyway, still hanging on....gotta go to the store to do some quick Valentine's shopping for the kids this afternoon and plan to hit the tanning bed as well. No meeting today, but that is fine with me. Very, very tired but haven't been eating all that well and no vitamins, basically gatorade or coffee Do you have your appetite back yet??????? I am hoping in the next day or two is slowly starts to resurface..
Well just checkin in, baby is down for a nap, kids have a 1/2 day and are gonna babysit, so i am outta here.....dinner tonight w/ "the family" should be interesting, it is like a reality show in itself LOL (and i am NOT kidding LOL)
Talk to ya later,
luv
LISA