Banker and the new meds. your on

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Mart - thank you for posting - it means so much to me. Have you ever taken imitrex for your migraines? What is your husband doing --- I know he was tapering and I thought he already was honest w/the doc but I guess not. Is it hydros that he's addicted to or something else? Do you have any idea how many he's taking? Would Sub work for him? How long has he been addicted? I'm sure you have told all of this but I went back and looked briefly and didn't see anything. How is your 'shopping'? And I'm sorry you are having such bad headaches and you are having to deal with this. I'll be praying for you too and keep us posted on the doctor's appt. Are you going with him? I would just to make sure he is honest. Something has got to change - but you know you cannot control him and the thing is, he cannot control the drugs either. He has GOT to get into some sort of a program or something. He cannot do it alone... that's why we are addicts. We cannot control our drugs.

Michelle - can you believe that I felt so moved in a church so different from how I was raised? It was just unbelievable. And I'm not taking the meds anymore. I absolutely could not function. I'm just taking Lexepro, Sub and xanax. He hasn't given me the topomax - just told me to do research on it and if I wanted it - he would give it to me. I'm so scared though to take it because it says it causes you to be really tired and I'm already so sensitive to things making me ZONK out. I don't know what to do. I may go back and talk to him when I get paid again and see what he says. Maybe since I'm so sensitive to lexepro - I should just come off of it all together and try something else. Seriously, if I don't take it in the a.m.... I cannot function the next day. One time I did and I fell asleep in a motivational speaker class. Thank God my manager knows that I take meds for depression and anxiety because she confronted me with it. Apparantly, several other VPs and Senior VPs noticed I was SLEEPING in the class when everyone else was up yelling 'FANTASTIC'. It's kind of funny now to think about it.

Anyway - there were so many people there today... I didn't notice any cuties. Well, now that's a lie. In the kids' classrooms, there were some cute guys, but I think they were a little too young for me. But... they do have a singles group that meets so who knows. What is the purpose of that? Why do they split up the singles from the married couples? I don't get it. It is almost embarrassing to say 'Yes, i'm single and I was a failure at marriage' lol 'oh, and not just once, but twice... but the second one shouldn't count 'cause it was only for two weeks and we had it annuled'. lol 'Oh, and did I mention I'm an addict and on Sub?' --- "Now, who wants to date me?" I'm just kidding, I have to laugh at my crazy past... Anyway, I'm excited!!! Thanks for helping me get through it.

Originally Posted by John 3:16

MJ- one quit note about the Topamax is that you will drop alot of weight with that! I don't know if that will be a good or bad thing for you, but I have a relative who was put on that to prevent migraines and she lost about 40 lbs!
Good luck!

Take care,
Michelle

Michelle:
I have heard that about Topamax. I am pretty much "average" weight not over or under; so I guess losing a few pounds won't hurt! Definitely will be a nice bonus! I was on Pamelor (I would take it at night), it prevented the migraines; but I would have horrible fatigue all day! When I stopped taking it I noticed a major difference in my energy level -- but also a return of the migraines. So, I am hoping Topamax will be a good option. It could also be the stress at home; but my migraines are full force again. Unfortunately, I get the aura, sensitivity to light and everything...
Thanks for information on the Topamax ... I appreciate it so much!


-MJ

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Meredith - can you tell me a little more about your experience w/topamax? What happened? How much, how long, what did you feel like when you first started on it, etc. Anything and everything would be appreciated. There is something in the back of my mind telling me that my doc is crazy for wanting me to take it for weight loss only when I have no other symptoms that would be needed for this drug. However, my counselor said that if it works and there aren't many side effects - do it. She said people get off and change anti depressants because of weight gain but I think I'm doing so well on it, except for the weight. However, could be the Suboxone but I don't think so because I've skipped several days of my lexepro and started the crying for no reason thing. Let me know what you think and your experiences. With three children and single, I can't be messing around w/drugs that are going to make me crazy.

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Banker,
I just wanted to jump in and hope I find you doing well.You sound like you're making such good progress despite the annoying side affects of the drugs you're on.I found it interesting to note that you said stimulants actually make you sleepy.The same exact thing happens to me.And slim fast bars??? OOOHHHH lordy, did I have an exciting experience with those(actually not the bars, but the drink) !!Quite a few years ago I decide I needed to lose a good 20 lbs. and wanted to jump start the weight loss,so I started the slimfast "program".I was at work,it was the fourth day on the program,and I was at a patient's bedside.Right in the middle of a conversation I was having with the patient's mother,I had to go to the bathroom-yesterday.And I mean there was NO time for apologies or excuses,I literally had to turn my back on her midsentence and hobble out -don't mean to be graphic here-with my butt cheeks squeezed together.I barely made it to the bathroom in time,and ended up having to leave work early!!!Oh,man,that was my last day on slimfast!!!( I think I dropped the bulk of those 20 pounds that very day,if you know what I mean!!!)BTW, I never saw that patient's mom again-saved me from some embarrassing explanations!!Just a little goofy andecdote from my up and coming memoirs(NOT,lol).SOOOO,I guess you could say the slimfast thing works, but be aware,be very aware...
As you can tell, I might be a little bored right now.I haven't really been getting to the boards a whole lot lately,I've been battling a series of life-altering headaches for the past week and a half.Have NO idea where they're coming from or why I'm having them,I've never been a real headache person,but I think I'm gonna have to give it up and go see the doctor.
Anyway,I HAVE been lurking and trying to keep up with what's going on (I am SO worried about Murphy right now)and it sounds like you are being pretty positive right now despite the sadness you've recently been going thru.I hope you are getting stronger with respect to that situation,and don't worry, when the time is right, I have a feeling God will bring someone strong and wonderful into your life.You deserve nothing less,and shouldn't settle for anything less.You're strength and continuing fight against this disease of addiction is nothing short of true inspiration for so many others.
Just a thought-do you just need a little adjustment time to the wellbutrin??Don't some of the side effects usually subside somewhat the longer you're on the meds??Anyway,hope everything finds you well,and I wish you continued success!!!
Love and strength,
Stacie

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Stacie - I laughed OUT LOUD when I read your story. What's so funny is that WAY back in the early 90's... I weighed about 120 and for some reason, wanted to lose a few lbs. The VERY same thing happened to me. I think back then, the shakes had TONS of fiber in them and also - I don't take milk well, if you know what I mean so the combination of the two... well, let's just say I was close to being in your shoes but thank goodness, was in the privacy of my own home. This would by why I'm eating the bars... and not drinking the shakes this time. Too funny!!

Thank you for all of your kind words that you said. I woke up late this morning and I have something due this a.m. that I did not do so I'm trying to figure my way out of this one so I was in an ill mood anyway but you made me feel better. Thank you for that.

I'm doing a lot better about the boyfriend thing. Still miss him but for some reason, I'm able to handle it so much better than that first week. I'm somewhat surprised that I'm not dwelling on it more than I am. Usually, I would.

K - get to the doctor about those things... and don't take a narcotic. Tell him that you heard they can actually cause rebound headaches if he offers them. So many docs do just to get you out the door. (unfortunately for me)

Anyway, hope you have a great day with the kiddo's. How are they doing? How is your oldest? I worry about you guys - you are a truly amazing person to have been through so much and do what you are doing. You should just wake up and pat yourself on the back every single day!!

Oh, and for the Wellbutrin - you are probably right - but there is no way I can go for a week or two acting and feeling like I did that first day. I'm telling you... I barely remember things from that day... I just had a really bad reaction. I swear it's because of the mixture of it and the lexepro... I probably shouldn't even be on the lexepro because if I don't take it just right - the same thing happens to me. Also, it's just a dirivitive of celexa and I tried that several years ago and the tired thing happened as well. I probably should be on something else that doesn't knock me on my butt if I don't take it within the correct hour of the day. It's pretty bad but when I DO take it during that perfect hour (usually between 9:00 - 10:00) then, it works great.

Gotta go do this thing that is due - think I'll do it from home this morning, make up an excuse for being late and check the kids in... Wish me luck. I'm having writer's block. This is the perfect example of my ADD. It's horrible... I just cannot accomplish tasks sometimes when I know they will be somewhat difficult. Thanks again and take care.