Can't stop eating and it making me depressed.

[shelleyad26]

I was always over weight growing up. At most I weighed 220 when I was 14yrs old. Somehow after freshman year in college I managed to completely change my eating habits, started exercising, and lost a ton of weight. I weighed 140 and I'm 5'8". I felt like I looked good for the first time ever and I loved it. I started to get obsessed with the weight loss, started eating less and less, working out more and more. Then I started binging. I went through a period where I woke up every night at midnight and I would binge. I would eat a whole box of granola bars each night. When I finally ended the night eating, I would just binge periodically. Within a year I have gained all the weight back and weigh 200lbs now. I'm so discouraged. I've tried dieting and getting back to my old routines, but I keep getting thrown off by bingeing. I try to find time to be alone so I can buy tons of candy bars and eat them until I feel sick. I just eat and eat and eat and can't seem to stop. I tried throwing up a couple times, but it hurt too much. The sick thing is that I wanted to be able to do it because I didn't want to gain weight. I tried so hard to make myself thrown up. Now I just eat. I really have a problem. I don't know what to do. I think about it constantly, and I just keep gaining weight.

I eat whenever I'm stressed or bored... or I do it to comfort myself saying I'll start dieting tomorrow. And I usually make it a day, maybe a week if I'm lucky, then it's another train wreck all over again. I'm miserable. Please help.

[Jonistyle2]

I don't have much time to write but I want to say that I hear what you're saying and I really feel for you. You sound just like me! I was/am anorexic, but I have had severe problems with binging for the past year. And yeah, IT SUCKS. It basically ruined the last year of my life, because I was feeling super sick and horrible from binging, I was miserable about my weight, I hated myself, I was trying desperately to lose weight, etc.

I'd really recommend going into therapy. That's where I am right now and it's REALLY been helping. I was able to completely stop binging for awhile, now in the past two weeks it's begun to rear its ugly head again, but it's comforting (even though i'm still feeling pretty down right now from a major binge last night) to know that I am actively working to overcome/change this. So yeah, that's what I'd recommend. Good luck and keep me posted!

[Cutie14]

Hello Shelleyad26.. Wow do I know what you are going through. I would love to talk to you because you seem like you are in a very similar situation as me. Read the post I started yesterday about myself! Let me know if there's a way that we can kind of buddy up and help each other. Because I need the help and support just as badly as you need it!

[BRIN35]

Hello, I have recently realized that I am in trouble with food. I keep telling myself tomorrow I will stop. The worst thing about food is it is everywhere. I don't want it to go on any further. If someone is interested in working out a support plan, please let me know. Even if it is to just check in every couple days or everyday to see how progress is going or for support if we feel like we want to fall back into an old pattern.

Food is my friend.....until I step on the scale.

[Cutie14]

BRIN35 I would love to try and help each other. It would be nice to have someone to support me. Just now I finished another binge. I can't stop bingeing. I've binged about 2-3 times per week for the last 2 years. I can't take it anymore. I'm so scared!! Please help anyone!