well since i was a child i had some eating disorder , i always loved to play instead of eating , my mother used to force me to eat , then later when i was 13 my mother died (RIP) so the eat disorder continued severely , and it continued more and more where i started to smoke two packette per day , drink to much coffe and stay awake till the morning , sleep 4 hours ,and had a big sex drive so either masterbated or have sex a lot , those days i rarely ate , i was killing myself this way , my lifestyle continued that way till 26 then my health decreased , i was thin and i felt tired , ill , i had many panic attact from cafeine/nicotine lack of sleep , i started to shake like a paper , i was fragile, every part of my body felt ill , it was like i aged rapidely and i was only 26 i felt that there is no return to me , it is too late , i was so dumb so loose the gift of life for nothing for being spoiled , too lazy to eat or whatever .
i stoped smoking , coffe , masturbating/sex and i started to eat , to eat like an elephant , i gained many kilo now , my health increased i am feeling normal again ,i stoped shaking , i am stronger now thanks god , i think clearer , my erection is stronger

(like i was 14 years old) i was dying i guess then , i was fool , i didn't understand the power of food or i thought i was superman , thanks god i had a second chance .
what i fool was i

, i am well now but i am afraid that by time i will return to my previous stage any tips guys to maintain in this level , food tips , how many times should i eat , some technique please to always have a good apetite to eat , do i take vitamine ? and what ? what do u recommend me to eat to gain more weight ?
thanks in advance .