Rainy Days

[eminemworshipper]

The reason why I haven't been here is coz of this last 2 weeks life's kinda been hectic.
One thing that has happened. I saw my good friend/counsellor on Monday...and she came right out and siad that she thinks I have an illness. I am sure Iheard anorexia mentioned. But
LISTEN

I am honestly not.....I am not even at a weight which gives any reason for concern. I am a fine weight for my height. It's just doing my face in. It feels like she is talking to someone else and has threatened to tell me Dad!!!

I feel betrayed and hurt...why can't I just come out and say it to her?????? ( Life ain't worth living right now...I am trying but struggling..
I am all alone right now...my Mam is away on hols....so is my Aunty...I won't see my sister until when i go on hols on the 4th....it feels a lonely place to be.

This threat could be the worst mistake ever. It's the wrong timing and unecessary.

Bye for now

P.S Thanx Ashlee for the post to all of us....I am still here...can't get rid of me THAT easily
Lov ya lots
caroX

[Ashlee]

Hey, Caroline.

I know you don’t think you’re anorexic, and I can hardly tell you that you are as that’s not up to me. I do, however, think you have issues with food – and you’ve admitted that yourself before.

I don’t think it’s fair of your counsellor to threaten to tell your Dad... I was always under the impression that issues such as these were confidential, and could only be discussed with your parents if your life was at a serious risk. You may want to just go and discuss this with your counsellor and explain that this wouldn’t help matters at all – as it most likely won’t! There’s nothing worse than feeling out of control of your life.

I’m not saying ‘don’t tell your Dad’. In fact, it’s probably a good idea! From what I gather from the way you’ve spoken about him in the past, you two are very close. If you wish to, talk to your counsellor and say that YOU will talk to him when YOU feel ready.

You have to remember, Caroline, that you don’t have to be 30 pounds underweight in order to have a serious illness such as anorexia. I know it really seams as though it is, but anorexia really isn’t about weight at all, it’s about control and many underlying issues that are getting you into this state.

I’m sorry so much of your family isn’t around right now... it’s the same for me actually! I guess us two just have to stick together, huh? We’ll live!

I know you're struggling but the sooner you come to terms with the fact that you have ‘food’ and ‘weight’ issues, the better! If someone else was struggling with their self esteem and worrying about their weight day in and day out, even if they weren’t seriously underweight, YOU’D want them to get help, wouldn’t you? You would, because you wouldn’t want them to suffer any longer than they already have, and you’d want what’s best for them! (Look at me, putting all these words in your mouth! ) Now you need to start treating yourself with that same respect. Give yourself a break sometimes, okay?

Oh, and your welcome for that other thread... I was just wondering where everyone had run off to, that’s all!

Take care and good luck with everything!

Love,
Ashlee

[This message has been edited by Ashlee (edited 07-27-2002).]

[youneeak]

Hi Caroline, I'm glad you're back and posting. You've been MIA for a while! I was starting to get worried.

I'm sorry about your counseler threatening to tell your dad about your "issues." I agree with Ashlee, I was always under the impression that they couldn't do that, Dr-patient-confidentiality, right? I don't know for sure, however, I do know the panic and fear that arises when someone "threatens" to tell your parent or family about your "issues," and it's unfair that someone you trust (i.e. friend and counseler) would put you through the pain and panic that comes with such a threat.

As for you saying you're not anorexic because you're not severely underweight, listen to Ashlee, and everyone else when they tell you that you do not have to be 30 pounds underweight to be anorexic. It's a mind game! You do not have to be 30 pounds underweight to die, you do not have to be anorexic/bulimic for years and years to die. It is a serious issue for anyone involved, as I am sure you are aware.

I'm sorry to hear that your family is away and that you feel that life isn't worth living right now. I assure you that it is. You have a wonderful life ahead of you, I just know it!! Wasn't it you that started the "happy thoughts" thread?? You deserve happy thoughts too!! I sincrely hope things get better in the next day or two!! You're such a positive light to the people on this board, we miss you when you're away! Let us know how you're doing

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~

[eminemworshipper]

Sarah and Ashlee...I can't tell u how much I am appreciative about your replies. I am very thankful.
sarah...what is MIA?
Yes...it was me who started that thread on one of my positive days ...what was I thinking?!?!? .
It was a good idea but I can't even face it when i am feeling a bit down.

My counsellor asked her supervisor..and she had said that my counsellor shouldn't tell my Dad...it ain't in her contract. But has told my doctor and he wants to refer me to a psychiatric. What's the diff. between a psychiatric, counsellor and psychologist? All I know is that the only similarity is their bloody awkward spelling!!

Thanx again for your support

Loooads of love

CarolineX

[youneeak]

Hey Caroline!!

How ya doing today?? I"m glad to hear that your counseler can not tell your dad about your ED. That's good news and should be a huge weight off your shoulder. Have you ever considered telling him yourself? He may be a great support. if you're not ready, though, i understand how hard it can be. i've yet to tell my parents

MIA = Missing In Action

I don't know the difference either....i avoid any type of "doctor" whenver possible! hehe

Hope you're feeling a lil' better today!! ::sending happy thoughts your way::

NEVER GIVE UP
~sarah~