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Originally Posted by emeraldeyes114
I do think a holiday would be a wonderful idea. What I wonder is this? Do you feel you need to be a certain facet for everyone sort of thing? Such as with the office you need to be perky and the way you are all the time? Are you a certain way with different people like the kids or friends? I know the face I wear for hubby is one thing while the one I wear for my mom, sisters, and friends is usually all very different. So if that is in some way true then perhaps by the end of the day you just tired of wearing one specific face for such an extended period of time. Does that make sense to you? For me it is hard to get them to see someone else since I can be smart, funny, compassionate, and so forth. But they don't always see all of it since I don't always show it to them. Often it just is what they are use to and little else.
Eme
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It's hard to say really. It's like there is just two of me. The work/public me is smiling, quick with a joke, smart and compassionate, sometimes fired up when I have to be but always ready to laugh and not take things too seriously or personally. Then there is private me which unfortunately my husband and sister and closer friends have seen. That person is exhausted, irritable, depressed, overly emotional, defensive, etc. I just don't know which person is the real me.
I have ALWAYS felt, as far back as I can remember, that I was a fake. That everyone who loved me just didn't know the real me. I've always felt like I was a bad person who didn't deserve good things but I've never known why I felt that way. I'm talking as young as age six I can remember having these thoughts. Oh it's overwhelming just to think about it.
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