Get happy, if you are happy, like my brother, who I really admire, he has this great attitude, like "It's all good, no worries"....of course he doesn't have any kids, but we both take care of my dad who has alzheimers, and he still has this great outlook. HE looks so young!! he's 45 and looks no older than 35!! I am 44, but I would say i look 40 cuz I'm short, and small. And I keep my hair a little longer. Any chance you can get a cool looking wig? I know they sell beautiful Authentic wigs. Get god in your life, it's amazing how that makes you feel. Good luck, God bless, and hang in there!