yet ANOTHER wakeup call

kawasakirider · 03-22-2003, 09:13 PM

well, today would have been my 11th day without a pain pill. i actually felt GOOD today. i had energy and everything, it was like a blessing from God. my husband was home for lunch and i wanted to go ride my motorcycle. i have a ninja sportbike - ihave only had it a few weeks. i decided to ride through the subdivision without my helmet. yes, save the lectures. i was going around a curve and i guess i downshifted, i don't remember, but i hit some sand and lost control of the bike and crashed it. by the grace of God i did not hit my head on the pavement, though i was so disoriented that i thought i had been wearing a helmet and it got blown off in the crash.i was looking around for it. my arm and leg lost a bit of skin and i cut my fingers and toes. a nice man who lives in the house i wrecked in front of called my husband and picked the bike up for me. when i got home i lost it and cried for about an hour. i am sore all over and still shaken. my husband gave me a pain pill and i have just enough for tonight if i can't sleep. i did try 2 tylenol and some aleve, but they did nothing. i feel okay about taking the pill. i felt no joy from it. anyway, just wanted to share what happened. gina, if you read this, i have been thinking about you and wondering what today was like for you. i hope you'll post about it. love to all - K Rider

Guiltriddenmommy · 03-22-2003, 09:50 PM

n/t

[This message has been edited by Guiltriddenmommy (edited 03-23-2003).]

kawasakirider · 03-22-2003, 11:59 PM

mommy - yeah it was amazing waking up this morning and feeling "normal". i got my emotions back, that's for sure. it gives me hope that i can really get the pain pill monkey off my back and not feel like a prisoner to it's will. i know you know exactly what i mean. you know, for every hydrocodone withdrawal help site on the web, there are 10 more showing you how to buy it online. that was a HUGE temptation and had i not gotten it from a @$AAAGHH!!! (sorry, huge mosquito hawk just flew in my face) friend, i would have ended up buying it by the truckloads online. anyway, we can do it. it's just staying off the stuff that will prove our big test. thank you for being there. everyone on here is so kind.

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jean

openseason · 03-23-2003, 12:00 AM

Thats good you were spared, but I dont understand the title of your post. You woke up about what, your motorcycle ?

kawasakirider · 03-23-2003, 12:05 AM

i'm sorry. i thought it would be obvious. i will never ride without a helmet again.

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jean