suicide? dont know what to do

slashaxlroseizzy · 06-09-2003, 05:39 AM

Hi im 17 and i have lived with my grandma all of my life.. recently i got the flu and then she got it... we didnt think it was that bad but hers turned into phemonia.. she has been in the hostpial for like 5 or 6 days now and was doing better now worse and she needs a blood tranfusion and i guess is gettin one, and is very weak now. SHe is 83 and i dont know what i will do if she were to die.. she ahs been there for me and i have no one else. i need her and love her so much i dont know what to do i have been literally crying all night since i heard she is doing worse and might not make it .. sorry to those who read this and donit care but this is the worse thing tht can ever havppen to me.. she is everything i guess i just need someone to talk to thx foryour time bye.. hopefuly she is beter tomorrow

i will have nowhere to go.. my life will be over she helped me and she was the person i could tell anything man i cant do this im cryin just typing this... goodnight ill be praying

camden · 06-09-2003, 02:37 PM

You are so lucky to have someone like that in your life! I lived with both of my parents until I was 16 and never had a close relationship with either of them.

I believe when someone dies they go to heaven and all of their family who went before them is waiting to greet them. It is strange, but now when someone I know passes away I can't help but smile. I still miss them but I know that they are happy and not alone.

Please don't give up if the worst should happen. Your grandmother would not want your life to be over. It sounds like she raised you well and would want you to make something of yourself whether she is there or not! Too often people use tragedy as an excuse for failure, but every once in awhile they use it to succeed in life. I hope you are the latter.

Your grandmother is in my prayers. I hope everything turns out to be alright.

zuzu8 · 06-09-2003, 03:19 PM

I agree with Camden about everything, especially the fact that your Grandma would want you to take good care of yourself.....

She obviously must adore YOU since her love and respect and caring of you made you into such a terrific person, filled with so much love,devotion and compassion. She must be proud of you.

I know this must feel like the end of the world, but there is still hope that she will recover, so try not to get too panicked yet.

One of her greatest concerns, all your life I'm sure, is if you would be okay if something happened to her.

If the worst happens, your greatest gift to her would be to continue your life well... and yes, miss her and grieve for her.. but not so much that it paralyzes you and prevents you from becoming happy, productive and loving.

That's what she would want for you.

Still, we are jumping the gun here....I do hope the new treatments kick in and all will be well again.

Just take it day by day.

Let us know what happens. Do you have any friends to talk to? Are you still in school? Maybe the school counsellor would be a good person to talk to as well. You shouldn't have to do this all alone.

Of course you have us here on these boards, so come back and let us know what's going on when you can.

zuzu xxxxxxx

slashaxlroseizzy · 06-09-2003, 09:10 PM

Thanks guys for taking your time to read my post, i have just graduated this year from high school, have a job and no car ( she took me ) been gettin rides from neighbors. Yeah i have friedns to talk to but.. dont like to talk to them about it. They all hope she gets well. I just got back from seeing her, she had a ultrasound to see if she had a cancer, a bloodclot or something else which is there.. hopefully its not cancer and they can fix it ... ill tell u guys the news tonight when i get off work and find out.. hopefullly its good news thx alot i will be praying , cya tonight.

slashaxlroseizzy · 06-09-2003, 09:11 PM

Thanks guys for taking your time to read my post, i have just graduated this year from high school, have a job and no car ( she took me ) been gettin rides from neighbors. Yeah i have friedns to talk to but.. dont like to talk to them about it. They all hope she gets well. I just got back from seeing her, she had a ultrasound to see if she had a cancer, a bloodclot or something else which is there.. hopefully its not cancer and they can fix it ... ill tell u guys the news tonight when i get off work and find out.. hopefullly its good news thx alot i will be praying , cya tonight.