Gonna be an all nighter.anyone there///

kindaunwell · 01-12-2004, 02:19 AM

WEll, its about 1:00AM in NYC,and I feel I am gonna be up all night! The TV movies all seem to suck, so I am looking for any other insomnac to talk to.
Come on,this your time to come out all you lurkers. Nobody else will know about ya,except me! I might be able to help you or at least make you laugh.... You never know till you try it.
I did my first "over-medicate" tonight by takig 2 instead of just one 2mg.Ativans, and I still feel like my mind is just racing along,cruising on autopilot. I did soo good stopping all medications up till tonight...
I've got a 10:00AM appt. with my company doctor and shrink today, so I'm gonna be in fine shape for that,huh ???
OH well, I'm just gonna lay back on my couch and wait for the early birds, then..........

(A waiting for anyone one to Speak)
Kindaunwell.......

BadAttitude · 01-12-2004, 02:48 AM

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Originally Posted by kindaunwell

WEll, its about 1:00AM in NYC,and I feel I am gonna be up all night! The TV movies all seem to suck, so I am looking for any other insomnac to talk to.
Come on,this your time to come out all you lurkers. Nobody else will know about ya,except me! I might be able to help you or at least make you laugh.... You never know till you try it.
I did my first "over-medicate" tonight by takig 2 instead of just one 2mg.Ativans, and I still feel like my mind is just racing along,cruising on autopilot. I did soo good stopping all medications up till tonight...
I've got a 10:00AM appt. with my company doctor and shrink today, so I'm gonna be in fine shape for that,huh ???
OH well, I'm just gonna lay back on my couch and wait for the early birds, then..........

(A waiting for anyone one to Speak)
Kindaunwell.......

Hi, Kindaunwell

I guess it's just you and me tonight. I having been following yours and many other's struggle to quit drugs, as a recovering alcoholic of 5 years I know your struggle. Quiting alcohol was one of the hardest things that I have ever done in my life, after drinking for 23 years I never thought that I could quit. I have been clean for 5 years which has not been easy either there have been so many times when I have wanted to go back drinking you know the just one won't hurt, but I know better then anyone that I could not no more stop at one drink then a dying man in the dessert could not stop at one sip of water.
I have many nights when I can not sleep sometimes I don't get much sleep so if you ever want someone to talk to I just might be on here. I wish you the strenght to be able to quit the drugs and for health and for all the happiness that your heart can hold.

~Autumn~

rosietee · 01-12-2004, 03:26 AM

Well, I'm on the west coast and it's only about 11:30 here. I hope you get a little rest. I usually check in after I get everyone to sleep (they're night owls too). Just wanted to wish for you that peace and rest come to you tonight. Sometimes stretching helps me a little, but sometimes it is just not meant to be. Hope tonight is not one of those for you (or me for that matter).

Still no NA meeting but I did go to mass (cool priest there) who immediately started talking about addiction and communication, can you believe it? Hadn't been in ages and ages, but myhusband is prettty reliegious and I thought the whole forgiveness thing might sink in a little.

I do hope the Ativan kicks in for you soon, sometimes it just sneaks up on you. Sweet dreams to you; I'm here alot lately if you need to chat,

Rosie

kindaunwell · 01-12-2004, 05:37 AM

HI,BadAttitude

Quite rude of me to make that post, and then fall off on you. I guess 4mg of Ativan couldn't hold out against me being phsisically tired,but not mentally. PLus lying down on a cofortably couch, with the old Pink Floyd playing in my ears.
Anyway, nice to meet ya BadAttitude......And you have my respect for staying sober for so long!! Although, I have been a beer drinker most of my life (To wash the pills down my throat) LOL! I have closed quite afew bars in my life time. I was usually a beer drinker, but many times I was using beer to chase down my favorite----Good old Jack Daniels!!! What was your choice of drink?? Its just that drugs took such a major role in my life, but starting from the age of 13 my friends and I would be passing a bottle and some joints around to each other right as school opened and I would end up passing out in class. More than once, it was a janitor waking me up somedays...
I have a good friend,who just retired last year from the job, and he was a full fledged alkie for 25 years, until on one of his many trips to the "Farm", He just uped and stoped just like that. even when he would be coached on by some of the jerks on the job, he keept to his promise. How have you been able to keep from stsrting over again??? Let me hear your story, if you don't mind??
Kindaunwell....

yinksy · 01-12-2004, 06:16 AM

Hey Thomas
You still up? If you have 4 mg ativan in your system - then I doubt! You are soooooo bad! But - if you can just believe what I say in this regard - your sleep will come back - and sooner than you think! Honest!! A couple of sleepless nights and then a few nights with just a few hours.................. slowly but surely you will get back into a reasonable pattern!
Hope this finds you asleep!
Rosie and Tom - yes - I got along to an AA meeting (no NA meeting in my area) - got great support. Same 12 step method as NA. No restrictions on your going to a meeting. All you need is a sincere desire to quit! I was utterly terrified of actually going into my first meeting - but it was one of the best things I ever did!
Doubting T what you say about the image thing is just spot on! Sure - we must all be like that - keeping our horrible dark secrets to ourselves? I think that is where AA and NA will help.
Michelle - hope you are just staying with it - it surely wont be too long for you now?
Y