Outpatient Program For Valium

[Murphy555]

Hello friends...

I went to intake today and it seems my insurances covers outpatent detox where you go to the hospital every day and they monitor you while you are not getting any valium.

I should have been thrilled. In a way, I did think it was wonderful, the thing is, I'm afraid, I won't be able to get through it. I could "try" NOT take one tonight, but I don't want to do it. Typical addict behavior - again - I thought I got rid of that.

And another excuse. i could start tomorrow - I said Monday. I'm just so frightened of I won't be able to get through the feelings.

I still feel detached, loss of memory, sort of insane, wondering if I will ever come back to a normal state, and if I could not, could I live with myself this way, which is where this started in the first place. I wanted to die.

Well, I don't have too many valium left (till Monday) and as last time, maybe that readiness of a commitment will work once again. But I keep on thinking, why bother somettimes, I'm tired of all this sometimes.

I'm dyinjg to read some of your posts but I'm so drugged and tired from I guess those valiums. When I see a heading detoxing from suboxone, I think, I my god, I can't read this right now. Not yet.

Maybe each of you could write 1 sentence or so to me as to where you are in life with your addiction and your successes and struggles. Then I can read it in one post. I would really love to hear what you all are doing.

Warm hugs Murphy

[Root]

Hi Murphy. This is quick like you asked. I am geting redy for detox from hydro on Monday. You are in my prayers and I am sending you lots of positive enrgy.

[Twinlynn]

Murphy...I'll keep this shorter than I normally do--so you can rest your eyes! :-)

1. This is what I would do, if in your situation: Start a taper with what's left of your Valium, so you won't have to go cold turkey the day you start the program. Then...the day you finish the last one...go to the hospital and get started with the detox. This way you won't be tempted by having any Valiums left around in the house after you start. (I, personally, would find even a few days' taper easier than stopping cold turkey.)

2. Ask the organizers of the Outpatient program if they offer at least phone support if you're having problems during the day. Explain to them your "detached" feelings--tell them just what you've told us. (I do think, though, that the Valium is causing this detachment....and that you are not going to spend the rest of your life in this state! That's how I felt when I went thru it, too. That I'd never come out of it. But I did. But, while I waited to feel better, I'd honest-to-goodness look out my window at dogs being walked...and think...I'd rather be one of those dogs than be in my own brain!!! So, I think I can understand at least some of your own despair.)

3. Bring along a notebook describing your symptoms, suicidal feelings, etc. Be sure to tell them about the suicide thoughts....that is so important.

Forgive me if this all sounds so simplistic...I'm just trying to think what I would do if I were going through this. I am so glad that you found some program to monitor you, while you are going through this awful time.

(And, when you are back to "par"--just think of all the posts waiting for you!! Every one of them wishing you all good things!!!) :-) luv, Lynn

[User 205000]

Originally Posted by Murphy555

Hello friends...

Maybe each of you could write 1 sentence or so to me as to where you are in life with your addiction and your successes and struggles. Then I can read it in one post. I would really love to hear what you all are doing.

Warm hugs Murphy

Murph, I have started month two of quitting hydrocodone cold turkey. I haven't felt this good in 8 years. The people on this board have been the key to finding the will power to detox myself. Good luck to you.

[LPierce]

Murphy....I used Hydrocodone for 7 years....a little over 2 months clean....went cold turkey, am currently taking Naltrexone (I opted for that instead of sub, because I wanted off opiates all together) It is an everyday struggle, but it gets easier. Best wishes to you
Lyn