Yup, you'll probly just have to be happy with how you are. Besides, have you ever noticed that all those chicks who were hot and tan 10 years ago look much older than they should? Tans make you wrinkle faster, cause skin damage, and sometimes even cancer. I'm not even trying to tan (i'm 17) because i already had a suspicious mole cut off (thank God it was nothing). From what you posted, i can tell you already have a few of the skin cancer risk factors. If you really want to turn some heads and look "hot," consider making your hair darker...pale skin with dark hair is an automatic head-turner.