Michelle

[Banker]

Just wanted to say good morning and I'm so very proud of you!!!!! You are proving it can be done and we are all behind you thinking of you every day!!! Let us know how you are doing...

[John 3:16]

Thanks, Banker! I needed that being that I only slept two and a half hours last night- down from four hours Saturday night! (Don't feel comfortable taking the Xanax for sleep issues!)

Day 12 though!!!!! I just have to keep my eye on the big picture, huh?

How was your weekend? Hot dates? Or did you have your children this weekend? Let me know you how your are~

Thanks again!
michelle

[Banker]

Hey girl! Did you try the Alka Seltzer Cold Meds and/or Benadryl? I know how frustrating not getting sleep is... it will drive you crazy. But remember that when your body REALLY needs it (not your mind, but your body), you will sleep. It will just take a little time. You don't think that 'energy' med is keeping you up, do you? Also, what about that herb you used to talk about --- can't remember the name. Have you tried that?

Anyway, I'm thinking of you... I had the kids but did get a babysitter for one night. Didn't have much fun... however, I've got several guys I'm 'talking to' that could be prospects. So far, I've been picking the 'bad boys' because I think I'm too scared to get into another relationship - and they assure me they aren't looking for a serious relationship. Honestly, I'm not really looking for marriage either. However, someone to love and love me back would be nice. But you know what they say - it happens when you aren't looking so we will see... I've GOT to get involved in the 'singles' stuff at church but been too shy. There's a woman there that has taken me under her wing and I think she's going to help me find the right 'small group'. Still scared though. I'm extremely outgoing when I get to know someone... but very shy initially.

K - take care of yourself... try to nap today when the kids are napping. Then again, maybe if you don't... you might sleep a little more tonight. I can tell you that since I've been on Welbutrin, I haven't slept over 6 hours... VERY unusual for me - normally I need 8 1/2... but I feel fine during the day, not tired or anything. Who knows. I hope to be like you one day and be drug free....

And I am proud of you for how you are using the xanax. Right now would be the prime time for a real addiction to start so you are doing great! Just try and take them for panick attacks and real anxiety... VERY proud of you. And remind me of that as well occasionally. I could slip at the drop of a hat - so just keep reminding me what COULD happen... And like everyone has said --- benzo withdrawals are 1,000 times worse... don't want to end up like that. So please just remind me when you can how bad that could be.

[John 3:16]

Hey, read the threads "wondering" and see if you can figure out something (I'll give you a hint- "makes me angry most of the time!")!

Real easy for someone who hasn't woken up day after day not wanting to get out of bed and they have no reason why as they should be so happy to say how horrible anti-depressants are.

Realy easy for someone who hasn't literally thought they were having a heart attack from mere anxiety to say how horrible benzo's are.

You get my point!

Are they over-prescribed? Sure! Should everyone let their "body work itself out?" I would suspect there would be a hell of alot more suicides! How do you think poor Rosie would feel reading something like that- wonder if her husband just kept hoping his body would "work itself out?"

(Sorry, a little angry....go figure! )

Talk later!

[Banker]

Michelle - I can figure it out without even going there... I couldn't believe you figured it out way back when you did... I was impressed! You know, people mean well... but just don't know how to say things sometimes. And you are absolutely right about both of the things you said?

Do you remember how bad I was several months ago? I seriously almost admitted myself into a hospital because my depression was so severe... couldn't work or do anything. It was HORRIBLE!

God made doctors so they could help people. You know, in history... how many of the 'crazy or possessed' people were institutionalized and lived their life in a hospital bed and were mistreated until they died? And I say history but that was probably in my mother and grandmother's generation and prior. Seriously, the medications today (some of them) were made to help people.

I cannot read crap about AD being bad... I just can't go there. YOu know, my mother wasn't on one... Obviously, addicts self medicate... was she and would SHE be alive today if she was taking an AD? Who knows...??? But I know that my children would be suffering severely without their mother on meds... not abusing, just taking them to survive. So, blah blah blah - is what I hear if I were to read something like you are saying... Now - benzos... yes, they can be bad, but they have also saved peoples' lives and allowed them to live a normal life instead of locked up in their homes. It's sad that people can be so closed minded and can speak about things when they haven't experienced these issues themselves. Of course, they have experienced the benzo situation - but I've said before.... I was on klonopin for years and when I got pregnant, my doc said take a .5 every other day for two weeks and stop. I did and had NO PROBLEMS whatsoever. So...???

Anyway, enough fussing about that - how are you feeling this a.m.? I'm late AGAIN! I haven't started my strattera yet... I'm kind of scared... but I know if I did, well... I hope it would help me with being late and all of the other ADD symptoms I have. Anyway, take care and be strong just for today!!! Worry about tomorrow, tomorrow - Scarlet!