I told my entire family I was addicted to pain pills, and Im going to rehab in 5 days

[Sarandipity]

I finally got the courage up to tell my family. I went to my parents house this afternoon and asked my sister if I could speak to her in private. We had just sit down, made sure my girls were in the other room, I lit up a cigerette... I was scared- I finally mustered up the nerve to tell my sister, I love her. I was just getting ready to tell her, and in comes my Mom. I said I have something to tell you and it's going to be really hard for me to get it out.

I told them it was confidential and It would effect the rest of my life. I told them I had been taking pain meds for the past three years b/c of my back. I told them I wanted to "do the right thing" and get help before a real problem arises.

I told them I was going to rehab in 5 days and I need her now more than ever. I told her I was leaving on Friday for 32 days. And I needed her help to take care of the girls. She called in her husband and wanted him to hear from me what the game plan was. She was worried as well as to what I was going to tell my evil ex husband. I told her honesty is the best way to go. I havent hurt anyone yet, or lost my job, or gone to jail. I made the decision to do the right thing after reading the book, "Cracked" and knowing I cannot live life feeling numb all the time. I told her God wants my whole heart back. I told her about family weekend and she immediatly said no, she could not be there

My mom- who never wanted kids- my Dad adopted my and ou siser. She right away mensioned my girls being there would interupt her rest. I tld her It was in no way her fault- but I watched her popping pills on my my entire childhood, and it had a huge impact on me.

Im ending now.. with 5 days to go...
Im relieved my sister agreed to take care of my kids.
Im relieved they are staying with her.

Another sign from the Lord.

MUCH LOVE,
Sara

[natthebug]

Sara~ I hope you are able to get well in the rehab, standing strong in the Lord is very important! What were you addicted to? I watched my mom do so many different things growing up I am surprised I never did the drugs I did around my kids. ThankGOD I got out of it all before I had kids. Let me know how it goes I will be praying for you. ~Natalie

[lisaaahubb]

Way to go Sara!!!!! I have been on and off the boards for a couple of weeks now...so fill me in briefly....how long are you going???? I see your sister will be watching the kiddies. That has got to be a BIG relief!!! Don't worry about the evil little ex-husband....you will see how much easier it is to deal with him when you are stone sober!!! i have an evil ex too....and a sometimes evil hubby LOL Oh well, you must be getting nervous....don't be...this is the best choice you have made for you and your children. I am so thrilled you are going to be getting the help you need. WAY TO GO!!!!! Try to enjoy the rest of your weekend and keep strong!!! I am praying for you
luv,
LISA

[windysan]

Good job Sara. The honesty part is a very good start. You are going to do very well.

[goddessgrl65]

Sara-
That was beautiful-you are going to make it..you got the right attitude-
Goddess Bless you and i will send you a prayer today for your recovery.
You made a courageous leap-im proud of you!
32 days-is a good long stay-enough to detox you-and be thru w/ most of the residual w/d you will come home strong and ready to take on life again-
Thankfully-you have some support from your sis-the kids will be fine-and you can really take this time to heal and learn-thru the groups/therapy/meetings.
Your going to do really well- i can feel-it!!!
peace/love-
GGrl65