I'm on 8 days clean today from a 40-50 pill habit. Look up my recent posts for what I've been going through. It was a rough week, but I can tell you at the end of one week it gets better! Once, you quit CT, and you have too. The taper plan don't work for people like us.Trust me I tried. The only way is just to quit and plan the week of hell. But know there is a huge light at the end of the tunnel. I didn't have an appetite until yesterday at day 7. That was because I finally took my cough laying booty to the gym and did the stair master for 15 min. It was rough but has to be done. After the gym I was so hungry. Finally, I got to eat!
So trust me, stop now before the 18 a day pill grows back into the old habit of 30 a day. Be thankful you're alive and read other posts about how eventually the withdrawls and depression ends. Taking the xanax and clonidine patch is great for the first week as you're going through the WD, but after it must stop. Make sure to drink lots of gatorade, and the ensure drinks (strawberry) so you can flush your system. Aslo, some other vitamins. Everyone responds differently to different herbs, but you can find which ones worked for which folks throughout this board.
Just know the WD will end! Do it now!