Needing some reassurance please!

[MissAngela]

Hi. I have posted here several times. I am having a rough time with anxiety right now.

A little recap...
21 year old female
Diagnosed with Panic Disorder/Anxiety

I have been having panic attacks and bad anxiety since I was about 17... I went through a period of extreme panic attacks, like every day. I went to the emergency room twice during this period and that is how I got my diagnoses. I went to a trained counselor at a Mental Health place and he also agreed with the diagnoses.

I wouldn't drive because I was afraid of having panic, I had the classic symptoms, racing heart, fear of going crazy, flushness, wanting to "get out" etc....

Now, I havn't had a lot of panic attacks lately and feel the best I have felt in awhile.. although I still have my days. Except I have been having an extreme fear of developing schzophrenia. I am not delusional (at least I don't feel like I am), no hallucinations....... I have however been suffering from bouts of derealization on and off most days.

And by derealization, I mean I just feel a bit off... like things aren't real sometimes, and this causes me to panic.

I am currently taking 25 mg of Vistaril and 25 mg of Lopressor...

For awhile I was terrified I had cancer, then I was for sure something was wrong with my heart and I would constantly take my pulse and stuff. I have had tons of blood work, stress test, CT scan, xrays, EKGs, Echos... etc..

Any opinions? thoughts?

Thanks
-Angela

[tnmomofive]

sounds like all panic and anxiety to me chances there is anything more are very slim and you had all those tests,which by the way if you dont mind im having a stress with echo tomorrow (yes i am fearing i have heart problems like you did its my latest obsessive fear) anyway they are gonna inject me with the stuff that makes your heart pound is that what you had? and what was it like?..thanks.......anyway the derealization is very typical even without other symptoms I had this so much off and on for many years I get that way still once in a while you are not going to go crazy or anything you will be fine!

[MissAngela]

I did the treadmill stress test. They will put radioactive dye in your veins that will raise your heart rate to its maximum beat.

Mine got up to 210.

Don't worry! Our hearts are amazing organs, they can handle it.


Good Luck!

-Angela

[ckjk5]

I also have peroids where I worry about becoming schizophrenic. I have ocd and panic. In the past I have also worried about bipolar and depression. It's terrible because it's like I monitor all my thought and actions. I guess to make sure that I'm not crazy. Well, schizophenia is nothing for us to worry about. I'm sure that you are like me and are almost too aware of your feelings, moods, thoughts, ect. What I think you are describing about the way you feel is high anxiety. It has a tendency to make you feel "off". I have bots of that all the time. It has gotten to the point with me that my therapist said she bets her life that I will never become schizophrenic. So, when I start to worry, I just remember that. And try not to question. Take care!!
ckjk

[tnmomofive]

thanks miss Angela I had the tredmill too instead of the other got heart to 170 and it came out great! yay! lol your was at 210! wow how did you handle that? I am so out of shape I thought omg this better be over soon lol




hope you are feeling better