I LOVE Pethidine and even though I've only had it twice in my entire life (well, more than that, but only 2 incidents which caused me to have it several times per incident - hospital visits), I always think about it and just long for it whenever I have even a slight headache.
I even once tried to obtain it online but became scared of the mail service finding out and arresting me.
I've never self injected any other drugs, so why am I so willing to do it to myself with this!?
Is Pethidine incredibly addictive? Am I emotionally addicted to it somehow? I haven't even had any for 8 years!