Hi Tamela,
You mentioned that you 'have a hard time staying on meds and always manipulate everything in your life, including your doctor visits.'
Do you think this would be a starting point to just tell your doc just what you stated above and make a pact with yourself that you will take the meds daily without wavering. If you find that the meds prescribed for you don't seem to be working then, immediately call your doctor and he can make revisions until they find the right 'mix' for you.
It can be very discouraging when you can't find the right mixture of meds, and this is probably why most people give up and stop their meds, but if you 'stick it out,' and don't give up...they will more than likely get you straightened out and you can be happy and live a very productive life.
Hope you will let us know how your doctor visit goes and best of luck to you.
With Kindness,
BEv