Just feeling so alone in this, nobody seems to understand

[zosolizard]

I've been going through wd's for months now (tapering off benzos) - and nobody understands, or seems to underdstand, about how serious this is, and how hard it is.

I feel like crap almost every day.

I'm so tired of people saying "oh, you don't feel good ?? Why not ? What's the problem??"

Do I have to wear a sign on my head to remind them every day?

I have both a heart arrythmia, PLUS the wd's. It's a double whammy.

I'm just annoyed & need to vent. Why am I, or my pain & illness, not important enough for people to remember ?

If one more person asks why I don;t want to "go out drinking" I'm going to scream. I feel like a broken record: I cannot drink. I am tapering off xanax. It makes me ill. Even my own *** sister!!! ARRRGH.

I know this is part of the whole getting clean thing. Just feeling really alone & bummed out. Plus I've had a really really bad cold/sore throat for 10 days.
WAH. I'm having my own pity party I guess.

I just wanted to get these feelings off my chest. Thanks for listening!

[jules3]

how old are you..my son is 20 and tells me that ALLof his friends either take pills smoke pot or drink..and it is so hard for someone like him (bipolar) and taking medications for it....to even have somewhat of a social life..i feel so bad for him..the influenences are all around him. he was abusing benzos just like you and is off them now...but they are all around him..he was actually in his classroom 2 twos days (private expensive university) 2 boys were selling xanax right behind him with the teacher inthe room...how pathetic is that..it makes me want to vomit. is it almost impossible?

[flintrock]

You deserve a pity party. Your life is hard right now. I feel for you....you're really alone when it comes to WD...no one knows what you're going thru and never will. You just keep doing what you're doing and get well. I am soooooooo proud of you for all the hard work and sacrifice you make to do this. It will pay off in the end...and you will feel great! And you'll be able to help someone else. You just get down on your knees when you're feeling low, and you'll feel so much better. I know that for a fact. And you ask for strength to get thru another day. You'll be amazed how that next day goes. Keep going and keep your spirits up....you have so much to be proud of and thankful for.........those other people have no idea!!!!

[kim4074]

I agree! I understand your frustration unless anyone has dealt with addiction and getting clean they dont understand. Most people probably dont know how hard it is to get off benzo's and that is life threatening. So I feel for you there. There isnt much education out about it unless it affects you and you go searching for it. Let me just say I didnt forget! I know how hard it is. You have done a great job and should be proud of yourself. PITY PARTY over!!! lol. Dont worry I throw those often just a party of one please. Keep it up your doing a great job.

Kim

[zosolizard]

Thanks so much you guys (BIG HUG!)

Just reading your posts made me feel so much better. Honestly, they did!

I'm feeling a bit better today, which is good. Guess there will just be ups & downs thru this whole thing - and when I'm up, I want to make sure that I can try & help other people, just like you all helped me.

Thanks again..... very, very, much. Don't know what I'd do without you guys!