Quiting c/t right now!!!Advice???

[mentalvdt]

OK here is my story. I am addicted to hydrocodne, have been for years. I have just had it. I want off and have tried tapers it don't work for me. I took my last dose and I don't want anymore. Well I want it but I want clean more.Pleas any help advice support will be much appreciated. I know I will have withdrawl..The part that bothers me the most about that is the restless leg and sleeplessness. Any suggestion on anything to help with that. I have a small scrip for xanax how can I use this to help? Please Please any help i am very scared.

[mentalvdt]

Just realized I proudly should give this info too..I have a 12 to 15 pill a day habit of Norco 10. They are prescribed for chronic pain with my back and the pain is real..I have never really done anything illegal to get them I just have 2 docs writing scrips. How bad will this withdrawal be and how long will it last?

[reachout]

Hello

Well. Not sure that a Saturday night and an impulse is the best way to handle this issue, but we start when we start. Smiles.

I don't think it is going to be horrible if you are still going to be taking the Norco. Is this the plan? Is there a plan? Addiction is a complicated issue and we need the preparation of a plan not only to detox, but to stay detoxed. The first part of the plan without the second part is usually a plan for disaster.

I don't want you to try and do this scared out of your wits. It is better to attack the issue with calmness and foresight and knowledge. All of us here want, as you do, to see you successfully get off un-needed narcotics and change the addictive thinking and behaviour. Having two doctors write the same prescription for the norco is deceptive and is a clear cut dispaly of addictive behaviour. It is addictive thinking to soothe the conscience by thinking that if something is not illegal, it is okay.

A good place to start right now would be to read the "Sample Home Detox," the very first thread on this board. It will help with the physical withdrawal a great deal. Then perhaps you should busy yourself and read lots and lots of threds on this board and get a handle on what you are really dealing with in coming off the hydrocodone.

Come back and share as I am sure questions will araise as you begin to learn.

Good wishes
reach

[skych]

Hello,

Welcome to this board!!

I read one thing in your post that really stuck out at me.....

I took my last dose and I don't want anymore. Well I want it but I want clean more.

That is a powerful statement...I want clean more.

I like the all the things Reach said as usual. Having a plan set in place is an important part of this deal

The fact that you said that you want to be clean more than you want to take a pill is a good thing. It will be something to look back at and remember when things are tough.

We can be in such denial about the things that we do to get drugs of anykind and use them. We as addicts are so very good at justifying our behavior. And yes I am refering to the fact that you were getting the scripts ffom 2 different doctors.
There is HOPE for the addict who stick with it and stays with their plan. There is much work to be done on ourselves after detoxing. Changes in thinking and in our actions and attitudes.
I am sure that you will find this board very helpful to you, but at some poit it may be a good Idea to get in volved with other clean and sober people so that you have real live support a phone call away.
Hope to see you continue topost here and read some of the stories on this forum......ask lots of questions and get to know us......Chrissy

[mentalvdt]

Well day 3 and I still think I may die..I have to confess just for my conscience I slipped to day and took 2 norcos. I just couldn't take it anymore. Had company coming and they do not know anything about all this I could not be a mess around them. Now I feel so guilty and like a failure. So my question now is will the withdrawal start over?? The pills only helped a little only enough to get a shower and smile a bit actually. I wonder if I will ever be able to do this at all. Will withdrawal from the hydro cause seizures??? I just don't know if I can do this. I almost wish A big hand would come down and tough me and take it all away of I could step into a time machine and go back years and never touch a pill. Sorry if none of this makes any sense I think I an really just rambling, I just want to go begging to any and everyone please help me.