trying to stay clean

[Wireman25]

Hi everyone thank you for listening i have been an opiate addict for over 20 years worked everyday and raised two kids finally have kicked them for about one month still recoverying . would like to talk . thanks

all the best

[tapergal43]

Welcome!

Congrats! You have done an incredible job if after 20 years you were able to do this. It gives me hope!

I have been in pain management for about 3 years and followed everything to a T til this last year when I let emotional issues control my usage instead of my brain.

I applaud you for raising your kids and working and finding the courage to do this.

Can you tell me a bit more about your story..............what you used, how much, did you taper or ct? Sorry, but the details are what keeps us all strong!

Best wishes and again, welcome!

[Wireman25]

taper

thanks for your note i my drug of choice was percocet , it started i was about 23 years old (now 44) i has a knee surgery and started to take them and before i knew it i was taking ten to fifteen a day. when i could not get them i would subsitute vicodin. i have my own busniess and money was not a problem however i got divorced and had two kids a job so i used which made me like superman until you start the cycle when three or four dont give you that feeling so you start to chase it. thats when the trouble starts. i am the oldest out of five children and was always the pillar or the rock everyone came to so i hide my addicition felt sad , felt ashamed guilty i had all the feelings. However i never let anyone in. i have since married a wonderful woman my children are grown up and i got sick and tired of being sick and tired. We should never be ashamed of who we are . we are not less than anyone else because we made a bad choice . I am really begining to feel again and i want you all to know you can do this. remember it is easy to destroy and very hard to creat each day i try to do one act of random kindness for someone a stranger a coworker someone that really needs it. i figure with all the money i wasted over the years . thanks wireman

[granny0]

Dear Wireman, my drug of choice is hydrocodone although I liked the percocet alot too, just wasn't as easy to get. My addiction started 2 yrs ago after surgery. I've been without for 5 weeks, never took more than 2, sometimes 4 a day. I've posted alot so I'll keep this short. I am really struggling with this addiction..although I am on cymbalta now, I am still pretty depressed and craving they hydro something horrible. I'm a "talker" so anytime you feel the need, please post to me. I'm hangin in there with you.
JB

[Wireman25]

well Granny
thank you for your reply, yes opiates are the hardest thing to quit i have found that staying active and keeping my mind busy is the best for me. i really dont have the cravings as i sat down and wrote a page on what i thought about perks and what they have done to me. i kinda broke up with them if that makes sense. and i kept the paper for awhile then i burned it. so they are out of my life. just keep going one day at a time good luck god bless
wireman