uuuhhhh, how do I put this.....
When a Doctor starts saying stuff like that, it's because they are worried about your physical health, and state of mind.
They don't really want anything happening to you while you are in their "care".
She is probably thinking more clearly than you are right now, and has assessed you as a "risk".
I was locked up a year and a half ago...it changed my life....things have been getting better ever since. If it were to happen, it doesn't HAVE to be a bad thing.
I would go back..
Good luck
Lil