Hey Mike(s), I'm there with you on the depression thing. I abused hydrocodone for about 2 yrs. Had a terrible summer - lost a friend to breast cancer, wrecked my car the day of her funeral, put mother in law with alzhiemers in a home and have been dealing with disposing of her house/stuff... I could go on and on. I handled all these things with the help of the hydro. Then I ran out in early Sept and started withdrawal and major depression. I didn't even realize I was going thru wd. Went to Dr who prescribed Cymbalta for the depression. Well, I had every side effect listed and just saw Dr again to switch anti-depressants. She does not know of my addiction (nor anyone else except the people on this board). Now I'm tapering off the Cymbalta, starting lexapro and just started coreg for blood pressure which was so high yesterday she said I should be concerned about having a stroke! I know what it's like to feel alone and frustrated with taking so many medications, I don't know what is doing what to me anymore. I was off the hydro for 5 weeks when some I had ordered when I ran out came in the mail last Saturday. Timed themselves to arrive when I had a headache from hell, which I was having for over a week. I took 2 right away.
They helped get rid of the worst of the headache but did not give me the buzz I got off them before. After 5 weeks of craving the drugs, they didn't do it for me anymore. For that I am glad. I have not disposed of them yet because of the headaches I've had on a daily basis, I think from the cymbalta. I feel more depressed than ever and have been having anxiety attacks. It's like now I know that my crutch for yrs doesn't work anymore, I more depressed but happy because I don't want the addiction again. Anyway, I just wanted you to know you're not alone. As far as the Flexeril goes, I'm pretty sure that and Soma-another muscle relaxer- can both become addictive. Like someone said below, try skelaxin. That's the "baby" in the muscle relaxant dept - one dr told me he just prescribes that to teenagers and people that don't need a strong one.
I hope you feel happy again soon. I hope I do too. This addiction thing is going to be life long, I'm afraid, so we have to find other ways of being happy, without drugs or booze. It's hard for me with winter coming but at least there's some good tv on now.
JB
And yes, the methadone was hell coming off of, even with the subutex. I like to think I'm a stronger person for it though. I'm currently trying to learn to live with my husband sober.. it's not as easy as I thought it would be.. but I'm going to give it what I've got. I know that it's best for my 2 boys. So we do what we have to. Anyway, just know that we're here for you to talk to!!
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