Please Help! With Addiction

[makinit]

Hi good people,
I have posted here, but am still under the grip of a complex addiction to hydrocodone and soma and can't seem to complete a detox. I have been addicted for a long time and have tried to detox in the last month with no avail. I have some complex issues that is keeping from getting past my first day or two (tried several times). These issues are due to long term abuse of these drugs. These issues (Health) are eshogus errosion, stomach errosion, L4-L5 herniated and buldging disc and teeth and gum problems. So far I have tried getting into treatment centers but they have long waiting list and I need help NOW! I have tried to taper these drugs with, so far, no sucess. I have had no sucess with doctors on this matter and have just wasted money trying to to get help from them. I am currently taking 25 Norcos (Hydro) and 15 soma a day. I am mentally and physically run down with depression from H***. The soma seems to be the toughest of my battle. I feel suicidal sometimes, but want to live. This addiction runs in my family also. I have already lost 2 brothers from addiction and 1 from a car accident. My mother also had a stroke this year and I feel I have been dealt a really bad hand here in life. I want to make things better for myself, but I feel like these killers have got such a hold on me that there seems to be no way out. I have tried the thomas recipe with no sucess. I don't think that sub is a route because of my throat/stomach errosion and also the fact that I am on the soma, as well.
If someone has some advice that can help me, it would be greatly appreciated!

[captnanny]

Hey first of all, you came to the right place. It's a good step. I know this must feel horrible and almost hopeless. I was in it seems like the same place you are in a little over two weeks ago. first off, do you have a doctor? How are you getting the norco's? Have you tried clonidine? What I had to do because inpatient was not an option was completely admit that I did want help, and that I did not want the rest of my life to be run on pain or pain pills. I had surgery in April but struggled with this prior to that. I may have chronic pain forever but one cannot truly evaluate their level of pain until their brain's and bodies have come back into balance. That of course is my opinion. What I had and I mean had to do was go with my docs suggestion. He only gives me two days worth. I also have to take the clonidine, it's a blood pressure medicine that helps with the jitters, anxiety and some of the other symptoms except for diarhea. Get immodium. I also take nexium and sometimes prilosec for when it gets real bad. I had to allow the clonidine to work, please if you are going to taper reach for that first. If you feel your doctor will not do this, can you have someone else hold them for you? You have to get rid of what you have and only take what the taper will be. I know you're probably thinking I've tried that she's not making this easier. It's not easy, anyway you do it, it's not easy. It takes more than willpower but this site is a great support and keep posting!!!! Even if you relapse, we are still here, we all have just keep posting and don't worry others will be here soon to offer their advice. I hope to hear from you again. Oh by the way it's okay to say anything, but do not talk about suicide, IT IS NOT AN OPTION. By the way they've put up with me for the past few days and I've been nothing but a big whiner!! lol

[FullCircle08]

Hey make --WELCOME and Congrats on making the first BIG STEP. You can kick this. I have personally witnessed worse addictions on here daily that get better and get through it. The biggest thing you have going for you is that YOU REALLY WANT THIS and that is important. You dont have to be at ROCK BOTTOM or in jail to do this. I would suggest a TAPER plan that a significant other runs for you. DO you have anyone that you can trust or love. I really good friend or parent or sibling. I know you have been through a BUNCH of bad stuff in the last few years, but ask yourself "do you want to end up like your brothers?" no. I think you see a little light. Dont fret the depression stuff, its not real, its the drug keeping its hold on you chemically. It takes a bit, but once you are clean you snap out of it slowly. LET DO THIS. I was almost at your NORCO amount just 1 month ago and now I almost 2 weeks clean. If I can do it (after 5 relapses), then you can kick this ASAP. Write back, tell us more --friend, plan, history of using.

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[makinit]

HI captnanny,
I came to Florida from Louisiana back in april to take care of my mother, after she suffered a stroke. I don't have a Dr. here in Florida. The way I am getting the Norco and Soma are pretty much classified, at the moment. These are some of the things I have that may or may not help for another attempt at detoxing:
Ultram (10 tabs 50 mg.)
Xanax (10tabs 0.25mg.)
Klonipin (3 tabs .50 mg.)
Darvocet n-100 (15 tabs)
just about everything in the Thomas recipe (except L-tyrisone)
aloe vera juices
vitamins
Bentyl
Donnatal/phenobarbital (15 tabs 42mg.)
catapress/clonidine (.50 mg tabs)
prilosec otc
GI cocktail
Immodium tablets and liquid
green teas, Chammomile teas, Good food, nice and comfortable home.

So I am aware that I need to make this work for my sake and I am willing but unsure of my ableness because of the opsticles I mentioned before, Hmmm I really done it to myself this time. However I am not giving up on this. Oh and I don't think that my parents would be the best for handing out pills to me, for they are very much up in age and wouldn't understand, in the least what I was trying to accomplish, anyways they have their own health issues, at the present, and I haven't met anyone here that could help me in that manner. It's a retirement community and most of everyone in the area are 65+. So, so for it's gonna come down to me "suckin it up" solo.

Your ideas, suggestions, and
understanding is greatly appreciated,

MORE THAN YOU KNOW! Makinit

[makinit]

HI meddguy, What a screenname! Are you refering to a medicine guy? lol Congrats on your 2 weeks. Have you experienced your short honeymoon yet?
Well I am putting another plan together at the moment and It consist of a short taper. I can't do those long drawn out methods, for sure. At this time I am doing research on what I have on hand that I can use, WITHOUT getting myself into more trouble or prolonging agoney. I don't have anyone that can deal pills out to me, at the present. Anyhow I'm not gonna let that stop me.
wheww! History you asked? well I will get to that one in maybe my next post to you or I will end up with artheritis by the time I end my typing...lets just say it's half my life off drugs and half on, for now. Tell me what you think of some of the items I have listed, above, for my detox( what u think I can use and what not)
Thanks!