Oxycodone addict needs a friend

[BassMaster28]

Hi this is my 1st time here i found this place by searching the internet i am a oxy addict i have been taking percocets on and off for about 5 years for cronic ibs all the other meds that are on the market give me little relief so i sorry to say have to resort to narcotics to get any pain relief i had stoped taking them for many years and just roughed it out but for the past year i have been taking them i might also add i have issues with my spine as well but i have no insurence so i don't even know what is wrong with it so i also take them for that my only way of getting any relief is by going to a hospital to get a script or shot i can't even offord to go to a doctor because most of them want about 150 dollars upfront just to be seen though i have seen one on occasion i can't hold down a job to get insurence so i can have my problems resolved because the pain is so bad in the mornings that i have to call out too often and end up getting fired i appled for insurence through the social surcurity adminastration but that can take up to a year so they have told me and just boot me out the door i don't know where to go next but i am tired of taking all these narcotics and tired of being addicted to them as well i am going through withdrawn at the moment i have not taking anything in 2 days by choice i know i could go to a hospital and get a script but i am choosing not to this has gone too far i ended up stepping up to roxicodone 30s because of my tolerance and i'd say to get my fix i have to take 2 of them i was just wondering if anyone has any advice for me i know i have a problem i do not want to take these evil things anymore but i know need surjery on my stomach my family doctor just says come see me when you can find some insurence untill then i am stuck either take them and stay out of pain but have the pain of being trapped or be in pain from not taking them well thanks for listening and appriate the help and support and sorry for the grammer it never was my best subject

BTW i have been to NA meetings in the past but in my area i got pushed out the door because most of the people there were christan and wouldn't except that i didn't want exept there god into my life i know it sounds wrong and unlikely but it's true and i had been to many different ones

[Winnie31]

Hi BassMaster!! I know all to well what you are going through!!! There has to come a time to stop and that's what I am trying to do. It sucks that you have no insurance and the condition that you suffer from sounds very expensive and you need the surgery. Would the hospitial set up a payment plan with you? I mean the amount of money you are spending on ER visits and pills you could make a monthly pymt to the hospital. If you did get the surgery would you quit the pills? I just ask because I used to use my pelvic pain as an excuse for more pills.

Withdrawl just plain sucks I was in your spot last week and for a while I didn't think I was going to make it. I just kept posting here and my friends here helped me through, but now I suffer with the cravings and emotional withdrawl but I know that this will be a lifelong battle. It came to the point that I had to realize the pills will not go on forever... there will never be enough I will just want more more more. You will make it through, for a while you feel like your going to die but you will MAKE IT!! If I can do it you can to. Thats what I was told and when you are withdrawing the words and advice you get here is priceless!!! I held on to every little word as hard as I could because I wanted to make it. We are here for support use us we'll help you through!!

Winnie

[BassMaster28]

thank you for responding winnie to answer your question all the hospitals do is refer me to pain specialist which i can't afford to go to the last time i was in the er the doc there just told me to get off the meds and save my money and i would just have to rough it out he offered to detox me but i have chose to do it at home because it is way cheaper and i've done it before so i can do it again but you are right with all the money i spend going to the er and on the pills if i just saved it i might be able to get myself out of this mess so i guess thats the longterm plan as for now it's stay clean one day at a time Wd are not so bad right now i've trying to keep my mind busy with whatever i can find video games movies reading peoples posts whatever and of course just trying to stay hydrated which doesn't seem to be a problem drinkning atleast a liter of water in a 8 hour time period well i'll go now i hope your recovery goes well keep it up and you will be back in no time trust me i know this isn't the 1st time for me

[BassMaster28]

ok withdraws are not too bad right now i'm just tired as hell that home detox list does work pretty well i picked up a few of the things at the store today damn that took all my energy just to go to giant but i had to get cat food so had no choice but i guess thats a good thing as it gives me fresh air and can help my mood and it did damn i'm glad i'm not working right now i would of been fired already from lack of motivation to work or probably just too tired to know what the hell i am doing it would be nice if i had some friends i could go hang out with but i dont reallly have any of those anymore because of those damn pills so i sit here alone just watching tv or playing some video games to calm my mind and keep me from doing something stupid i could of earlier my dealer called me and said he needed a ride somewhere and hed hook me up but i told him my truck won't start maybe i should just tell him i'm going clean and maybe he won't call me anymore probably a good idea should of thought of that when he called well thats all for now back to my games hopfully i will pass out cold soon lol

[granny0]

Hey Bassmaster, my fellow Marylander!
Hang in there, the withdrawals are almost over. You did a great thing by telling your dealer your truck would not start. That was BIG and shows you are really committed to getting off the oxy. Do what you said you should have it he calls again. Tell him you've been thru hell the past few days and please don't call again. You don't want to be tempted.
Shame it's too cold to go fishing, huh? I've been off pain pills for almost 4 months. This is such a hard time of the year. I hate winter and if it was summer, my husband and I would be going out in the boat fishing or to O.C., fishing of course LOL. Start thinking now what you are going to do to occupy your time. Depression usually follows withdrawal and you need to be prepared for that.
Best wishes!
JB