Thanks Nexus. I am diagnosed with PTSD and Anxiety/Panic disorder. I have had issues with sleep since a kid. My sister has Bipolar and Boderline Personality. There is also a strong family history of mental illness. I had Post-Partum Depression which eventually led to Post-Partum Psychosis. That was HELL for 2 years! My son is now 6 1/2 so it was many years ago. I have never been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder.
The nightmares are just hellish. I wake up so tired. I will start posting on the mental health board, thanks for the suggestion. I go to a psychologist and psychiatrist but it hasn't helped with the dreams actually sometimes it makes it worse. And I do resort to drinking at times so I can just pass out then I don't dream that way or at least I don't remember them. I know that is totally bad, I am getting help for that but eventually I cave in. Thanks for your help

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