I know exactly how you feel. I am in the same boat per say. I recently went to two different docs. because I have been having very bad female problems for 2 years now and need (according to both docs) a hystorectomy but niether will do it till I loose 50 lbs. I can do that, but because of the pains it is hard, almost impossible, at times to exercise. Neither doc would tell me or help me in anyway to loose the weight so I am on my own now. Hang in there and even though we don't know each other I do care.
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Robin